Bad Case of Loving You

John went back to his sister’s room, and sat beside her bed, and I stood outside the room, Mrs. Silva’s medication chart in my hands. “I’m going to adjust her pain management,” I told Rhonda.

Rhonda nodded. “Yes, doctor.”

“Page me or ring me, if you need me.” Argh, I was striking today. “Up until eight a.m.. After that, my pager and cell phone will be off, but I’ll be down at the front entrance to the hospital. Make sure you let the day staff know they can come and get me any time. I’ll cross the picket line if I’m needed.”

“I’ll put that in the handover, make sure they know.” She very carefully didn’t look at the medication order I’d just written, and I was glad she knew the process well enough not to ask difficult questions.

She put the chart back in the holder, and we moved onto the next patient.

I’d made ‘a mistake’ while changing Mrs. Silva from morphine to pethidine, and hadn’t ceased the morphine order.

It wasn’t euthanasia, not quite, since the combined doses still weren’t fatal, but it was certainly over-prescribing, and it meant Mrs. Silva would slip away in a drug-induced fog very quickly.

We shuffled around the ward, waking the patients that I really needed to examine, leaving the others resting while I reviewed their notes. It took a while, and Rhonda had to keep darting off to answer bells since Kira needed to sit with Mrs.

Silva.

I was leaving the ward when Ghastly George walked up to the nurses’ station, and, as always, she made me smile. She was prone to luridly bright clothing, and tonight was no exception. She trailed a purple scarf over a lime green T-shirt, and was wearing black and silver harem pants and red sneakers

I loved someone who didn’t take the hospital’s dress code too seriously. ‘Professional attire’ this was not. I felt like a sell-out in my sedate pale blue shirt and grey trousers.

She smiled widely at me and said, “Hey, Andrew. You answering my pager for me tonight?”

I shook my head. “Nope, just doing rounds before the industrial action starts.”

“Figured as much.” She leaned against the nurses’ station to take the weight off her feet a little. “Lucia is down on orthopedics doing rounds, too, and I ran into Cecelia in the lift.” She smiled tiredly at me. “Do I need to look at the patient I was paged for? Did you check her out?”

I nodded. “Yeah. Mrs. Silva is Cheynes-Stoking. I altered her analgesia.”

Ghastly George nodded. “Good.”

She walked to the elevator with me, and rode down a couple of floors before disappearing into the unlit hallways and gentle snores of the wards.

It was six now and I needed coffee. The house physicians’

common room was the only place in the main building that had coffee at this time of the morning, and I couldn’t be bothered hiking through the corridors to my own office, so I punched the pass code into the lock, confident that it wouldn’t have changed since the last time I’d used the room.

There were a couple of doctors asleep on the couches so I left the lights off and crossed the darkened room to the lit alcove containing the kettle and cups. There was no milk, of course, but I could drink black coffee.

Hell, right at that moment, if there was no water, I’d eat the spoonfuls of instant coffee I needed.

I was tired. While there were real advantages to having a young lover, it was seriously affecting my sleep. Then I thought of the bar through Matthew’s cock, and what the beads could do. I could get by without sleep. I’d survived interning; I’d survive Matthew.

Chapter Twenty Seven

When I woke, it took a few moments to work out where I was.

Everything was wrong; there was sunlight streaming around the edges of the blind, the bed was too soft and too clean and it smelled deliciously of sex, not of sour, unwashed sheets.

Andrew’s Ikea bed. Which had withstood our attempts to shake it to pieces.

I hugged the other pillow contentedly. Andrew had left hours ago. I vaguely remembered him getting up in the middle of the night.

It wasn’t time to get up yet; there was no clinical today because of the strike. I’d arranged to meet Lin and Nevins, and a couple of the other students from the stop work meeting, at nine. For someone who woke up at five-thirty every morning, that was a late start.

I rolled out of bed and found my robe. It was even better than borrowing Andrew’s. It might not smell of him, at least not yet, but he’d bought it for me.

There was cold coffee in the percolator downstairs so I ditched it and emptied the filter, then refilled the machine.

There was a note for me on the counter top, and a key.

‘Dear Matthew,’ it said, and I sat down on one of the stools against the counter.

There were instructions for the security system, and the code. Then Andrew said, ‘There will no doubt be some kind of post industrial action get-together, probably at F’s place, since he triggered the whole thing. Come with me? I can call you, then come and pick you up from wherever you are.