“And I am to believe that?” Navar said, his voice rough. Well he knew that a man’s anger was a blade set at his own throat, yet he could not keep himself from feeling it. He thought of Doladan, awaiting him in their bed at the tavern—Doladan, who trusted too quickly and too easily. He thought of the hope that he might live in freedom and under law, a hope that had kindled from a fragile spark to a great blaze over so many moonturns—
“To crush it,” Navar growled, for he had discovered that it was far more painful to have a dream destroyed than to live without dreams at all.
Navar desperately wanted to believe. And he knew that faces and voices could lie.
But for the first time since he had discovered that Valdemar had become infested by mind-controlling spirit-beasts, it occurred to him to wonder: If these “Companions”
“That’s all?” Navar asked after a moment. “You just pick people?” It didn’t seem like much.
He had the sense that Ardatha was clearing his throat in mild rebuke, though he could not say how he came to have that sense.
“You haven’t Chosen me, have you?” Navar asked in alarm. If he could hear Ardatha . . .
The silvery laughter of a dozen Companions filled his mind, until Ardatha stamped his hoof.
“You could tell the king to order me to stay,” Navar said.
Peralas, Navar recalled, was General Harleth’s milk-name. He thought of the Herald’s Council and its unlikely membership.
It seemed to him—standing here in the freezing dark, beside a horse that was far more than a horse—that this was no more than a dream. But Valdemar itself was a dream—the best dream the hearts of men could hold, rather than the uneasy nightmare of oppression and tyranny they had fled. He thought of the Pelagiris Forest, and he knew there would be no sanctuary for him and for Doladan there. And a man might live rough for one moonturn or even a dozen, but in the end, all that might be found in a solitary life in the wilderness was starvation and an early death. Worth it to die in freedom.
Foolishness if he fled merely from shadows in his own mind.
“I am nothing and no one,” he said at last. “I can hardly threaten your plans for Valdemar.”
Ardatha seemed to sigh in exasperation.
“Courage?” Navar asked. His voice was hard, for no one had ever questioned his courage.