Chickenhawk: Back in the World

After an eight-hour ride from prison, I met Patience at the bus station in Ocala. You can ride home in your car on furloughs, fly if you want, but you have to take the bus when you leave. Technically, you’re still in custody when you’re transferred from the prison to the halfway house. It’s a rule.

We drove to the address and found a white brick house with a sign out front that said SALVATION ARMY. When I saw this, I began to have regrets that I’d fought so hard to get a four-month halfway house. The counselors said I already had a job. The idea of the halfway house was to help a convict get a job and get back into society. I had argued that I couldn’t live forever on one book, I really had to get back to work, try to write another book. They gave me the halfway house. Now, looking at the Salvation Army building, I began to have doubts.

A woman inside showed me the bunk room where I’d be staying five nights a week for the next four months. The room was down the hall from where the normal clients of the Salvation Army, the homeless and destitute, stayed. There was room for ten men in the bunk room which the Salvation Army provided on contract with the state and federal prison systems. The bunks were equipped with lumpy, plastic mattresses.

The woman said I’d have to go check in with the head of the place. Captain Eugene Gerber, at his office in another part of town. Patience and I drove to Gerber’s office.

Gerber knew all about me. He sat behind his desk under a picture of Jesus Christ and lectured me and Patience for two hours about the kind of “ship” he ran. He was a Navy veteran, a sailor. Now he was captain of the local Salvation Army. Gerber ran a tight ship.

Gerber read from a whole list of regulations: I’d have to be at the Salvation Army every night by ten except Friday and Saturday night. On weekends, the felons got passes if we hadn’t fucked up by breaking any of the rules. I was to keep my bunk straight; I’d also be responsible for keeping the bathroom clean; I was subject to random urine checks, which, if I failed, would send me back to prison. I could, however, drink if I didn’t get drunk. Gerber had more regulations than Eglin, and read them all. Finally he said I had to get a job.

I said, “Captain Gerber, I have a job. I’m a writer.”

“I’ve heard. Do you get a paycheck every week?”

“No. Writers usually get paid twice a year. Royalty payments.”

“I have to see a paycheck every week,” Captain Gerber said.

I was about to say I’d made a hundred and eighty thousand dollars in less than two years, but I knew that would only piss him off. So I said, “I’ll get a paycheck every week.”

“Fine. Where will you work?”

I’d heard I might run into this problem, so I’d already called Knox about it. “I’ll be working for my agent, at home.”

Gerber nodded. “That’s okay with me. Have him send me a letter saying you’re employed by him. I want to see a Xerox copy of each paycheck, each week. Also, keep in mind that you have to check in here before six every day.”

“I thought you said I’d have to be here at ten.”

“That’s right. But we have to see you punch in at the time clock after work. You’re free from then until ten.”

“I live in High Springs, Captain Gerber. That’s sixty miles from here. Couldn’t I just call you and tell you I’m finished working for the day?”

“No. I have to see that card punched every day. Before six.”

This guy was going to show me what power was all about. I already knew one guy in Gerber’s halfway house, a former inmate from my section at Eglin, who worked in Gainesville, thirty miles away, and he didn’t have to check in after work. There was no way around this guy—it was a rule. He was simply being selective about enforcing it. I could feel my face getting red. I said, “Fine. Is that all?”

Gerber smiled. “Yes. You follow the rules to the letter, Mr. Mason, and we’ll get along just fine.”

On the way to a restaurant in Ocala, I went into a rage and told Patience I wanted to go back to prison, where people were reasonable. Patience said I didn’t love her, and I shut up.

I fell into a new daily routine: I got up at five-thirty in the felon’s bunkhouse, made a cup of coffee in the kitchen, got into our Escort, and drove sixty miles to High Springs. I stopped off at my parents’ at six-thirty and had coffee. My dad was improving. He couldn’t walk or use his right arm, but he was talking well enough to understand. My mother wanted to sell the farm and move to Gainesville, closer to the doctors.