Confessor: Chainfire Trilogy Part 3

"Who we are, what we are, what we can be, is moment by moment dis­integrating. It's not just about forgetting Kahlan. The vortex of that spell grows daily. The damage is multiplying on itself. We are unaware of the full extent of all we have lost already while day by day we lose yet more. Our very minds, or ability to think, to reason, are being eroded by that vile spell.

"Worse, the Chainfire spell is contaminated. Richard himself showed it to us. The contamination of the chimes is buried deep within the Chainfire spell that has infected everyone. The contamination carried by the Chain­fire spell is burning through the world of life. Besides destroying the na­ture of who and what we are, it's destroying the fabric of magic itself. Without Richard we wouldn't even be aware of it.

"The world not only stands at the brink due to Jagang and the Imperial Order, but it is being destroyed by the silent, unseen work of the Chainfire spell and the contamination within it."

Nicci jabbed a finger at her temple. "Has that contamination already destroyed your ability to see what is at stake? Has it already taken your ability to think?

"The only counter to the Chainfire event is the boxes of Orden. That is the reason the boxes were created-they were created specifically as the only salvation should the Chainfire event ever be ignited.

"Those Sisters ignited Chainfire. To compound what they did, to make it irreversible, they themselves put the boxes in play, put the counter in play, naming themselves as the player. They believe that there is now no way for anyone to stop them. They may be right. I've read The Book of Life, the instructions for how Orden functions. It provides no way to halt the play once initiated. We can't shut down Chainfire. We can't halt the play of Orden. The world of life is about to spin out of control-just as they want.

"What is Richard fighting for? What are we all fighting for? Should we simply give up, say that it's too hard, too risky to try to prevent our total annihilation? Should we shrink from the only chance we have? Shall we surrender everything that matters? Should we let Jagang slaughter all those who wish to be free? Let the Fellowship of Order enslave the world? Allow Chainfire to run rampant and destroy our memory of everything good? Let the contamination within that spell wipe magic from the world along with everything that depends on it for life? Shall we just sit down and give up? Shall we let the world end at the hands of people who would destroy it all?

"Sister Ulicia opened the gateway to the power of Orden. She put the boxes in play. What is Richard supposed to do? He has to have the weapons he needs to fight this battle. I have just given him what he needs.

"The struggle is now truly in balance. The two sides of this battle are now fully engaged in the struggle that will decide it all.

"We have to trust Richard in this struggle.

"There was a time a few years back when you were faced with similar decisions. You knew your choices, your responsibilities, the risks, and the lethal consequences of inaction. You named Richard the Seeker of Truth."

Zedd nodded, hardly able to summon his voice. "Yes, I did indeed."

"And he lived up to everything you believed of him, and more, didn't he?"

He couldn't make himself stop trembling. "Yes, the boy did all I ever expected and more."

"This is no different, Zedd. The Sisters of the Dark no longer have exclusive access to the power of Orden." She brought an arm up and made a fist. "I have given Richard a chance-I have given us all a chance. In that sense, I have just put Richard into play, giving him what he must have to win this struggle."

Through his watery vision Zedd gazed into her eyes. Besides the resolve, the fury, the determination, there was something else. He saw there in her blue eyes a shadow of pain.

"And . . . ?"

She drew back. "And what?"

"As complete as your rationale has been, there is something more to this, something that you have not said."

Nicci turned away, the fingers of one hand trailing along the tabletop, trailing through spells drawn in her own blood, spells she had risked her life to invoke.

Her back to him, Nicci gestured vaguely, a self-conscious flick of her hand, a simple motion gracefully betraying unimaginable anguish.

"You're right," she said in a voice on the ragged edge of control. "I have given Richard one other thing."

Zedd stood for a moment, considering the woman turned away from him. "And what would that be?"

She turned back. A tear traced a slow path down her cheek.

"I have just given him the only chance he has of getting back the woman he loves. The boxes of Orden are the only counter to the Chainfire spell that took Kahlan from him. If he is to have her back, the boxes of Orden are the only way.

"I have given him the only chance he has to have what he loves most in life."

Zedd sank back down in the chair and put his face in his hands.

CHAPTER 5