Dark Benediction

Had the man really existed—what was his name?—Kenneth Grearly? Or was he only a phantasm invented by a mind that was failing—her mind? Dancing naked in the rain! Calling out to shadow shapes in the brush! Talking to a specter in the street! Schizophrenic syndrome dream-world stuff. It could not be otherwise, for unless she had invented Kenneth Grearly, how could she know he had sore feet, an impacted wisdom tooth, and a head cold. Not only did she know about those things, but she felt them!

She buried her face in the dusty pillow and sobbed. Tomorrow she would have to call Dr. Mensley.

But fearing the specter’s return, she arose a few minutes later and locked all the doors in the house. When she returned to bed, she tried to pray but it was as if the prayer were being watched. Someone was listening, eavesdropping from outside.

Kenneth Grearly appeared in her dreams, stood half-shrouded in a slowly swirling fog. He stared at her with his head cocked aside, smiling slightly, holding his hat respectfully in his hands.

“Don’t you realize, Mrs. Waverly, that we are mutants perhaps?” he asked politely.

“No!” she screamed. “I’m happily married and I have three children and a place in society! Don’t come near me!”

He melted slowly into the fog. But echoes came monotonously from invisible cliffs: mutant mutant mutant mutant mutant…

Dawn came, splashing pink paint across the eastern sky. The light woke her to a dry and empty consciousness, to a headachy awareness full of dull anxiety. She arose wearily and trudged to the kitchen for a pot of coffee.

Lord! Couldn’t it all be only a bad dream?

In the cold light of early morning, the things of the past night looked somehow detached, unreal. She tried to analyze objectively.

That sense of sharing a mind, a consciousness, with the stranger who came out of the shadows—what crazy thing had he called it?—“some sort of palpable biophysical energyform, analytically definable.”

“If I invented the stranger,” she thought, “I must have also invented the words.”

But where had she heard such words before?

Lisa went to the telephone and thumbed through the directory. No Grearly was listed. If he existed at all, he probably lived in a rooming house. The University—last night she had thought that he had something to do with the University. She lifted the phone and dialed.

“University Station; number please,” the operator said.

“I—uh—don’t know the extension number. Could you tell me if there is a Kenneth Grearly connected with the school?”

“Student or faculty, Madam?”

“I don’t know.”

“Give me your number, please, and I’ll call you back.”

“Lawrence 4750. Thanks, Operator.”

She sat down to wait. Almost immediately it rang again. “Hello?”

“Mrs. Waverly, you were calling me?” A man’s voice. His voice!

“The operator found you rather quickly.” It was the only thing she could think of saying.

“No, no. I knew you were calling. In fact, I hoped you into it.”

“Hoped me? Now look here, Mr. Grearly, I—”

“You were trying to explain our phenomenon in terms of insanity rather than telepathy. I didn’t want you to do that, and so I hoped you into calling me.”

Lisa was coldly speechless.

“What phenomenon are you talking about?” she asked after a few dazed seconds.

“Still repressing it? Listen, I can share your mind any time I want to, now that I understand where and who you are. You might as well face the fact. And it can work both ways, if you let it. Up to now, you’ve been—well, keeping your mind’s eye closed, so to speak.”

Her scalp was crawling. The whole thing had become intensely disgusting to her.

“I don’t know what you’re up to, Mr. Grearly, but I wish you’d stop it. I admit something strange is going on, but your explanation is ridiculous—offensive, even.”

He was silent for a long time, then “I wonder if the first man-ape found his prehensile thumb ridiculous. I wonder if he thought using his hands for grasping was offensive.”

“What are you trying to say?”

“That I think we’re mutants. We’re not the first ones. I had this same experience when I was in Boston once. There must he one of us there, too, but suddenly I got the feeling that he had committed suicide. I never saw him. We’re probably the first ones to discover each other.”

“Boston? If what you say is true, what would distance have to do with it?”

“Well, if telepathy exists, it certainly involves transfer of energy from one point to another. What kind of energy, I don’t know. Possibly electromagnetic in character. Out it seems likely that it would obey the inverse square law, like radiant energy forms. I came to town about three weeks ago. I didn’t feel you until I got close.”

“There is a connection,” she thought. She had been wondering about the increased anxiety of the past three weeks.