God Hates Us All

MY NEXT MEETING IS ON Wall Street, a straight shot down-town on the 2. Joseph slithers past me on the train between Chambers and Fulton, slipping a bag into my jacket. I emerge from the station into a light rain with ten minutes to spare. Taking shelter in a doorway, I watch the thousand-dollar suits, water beading and rolling off their gelled hair as they yammer into portable telephones. I root for lightning.

Ten minutes past the appointed meeting time, I notice a kid my age who could have been me. A much douchier version of me. His hair is slicked back like the rest of the Yuppies, but his suit gives him away: It’s an off-the-rack version of the standard uniform. He tries to make eye contact with me, so I give him a half-nod.

“Hey,” he says. “You looking for Danny?”

“That depends,” I ask. “Are you Danny?”

“Maybe. Why?”

“Because then I’d know that I wasn’t looking for you,” I say. “Guy I’m meeting’s supposed to be wearing Armani.”

“Take it easy, Dockers,” he says, insulting the pants my mother bought for me. Now I really don’t like this guy. “Danny’s in his office. He told me to come find you.”

I angle myself toward the subway, ready to runanother one of Rico’s suggestions. “The proxy is like a red alert,” he told me, surprising me with his use of the word “proxy.” “Nobody is so lazy that he ain’t gonna pick up his own shit, you know what I mean?” On the other hand, the police, in Rico’s experience, were more than capable of “these kinds of subterfuges.”

I tell him that I don’t know any Dannys.

“Danny Carr,” he insists. “He said there’s a Benjamin in it for you if you come up to his office.”

Oddly enough, the offer of extra money is actually a positive sign that this isn’t a setup. Another Ricoism: The police can’t make a case against someone they bribe into committing a crime. “Why would I want to come up to his office?”

He holds out his palms and shrugs. “Working for Danny means doing what he asks you to do when he asks you to do it. Or as Danny says, why is not a component of my job.”

“My heart bleeds for you. But I don’t work for Danny.”

“Neither will I if you don’t follow me back up there. Come on. A hundred bucks for, like, ten extra minutes of work.”

I look for any other suspicious signs. Like I’d know. “Are you a cop?” I ask per the standard script.

“Fuck no.” He smiles nervously. “Why would you think I’m a cop?”

My spirit of caution finally gives way to the greedy desire to more than double my daily pay. I follow the kid across the street into an office building. We walk past a front desk, nodding at the security guard, and ride an empty elevator to the twenty-third floor.

As soon as the doors close, he extends a hand.

“Rick Cleary.”

“Okay.” I ignore his hand.

“So are you, like, Danny’s drug dealer?”

“I really don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“I know, I know. Just the question about me being a cop.” I scan the elevator for potential hidden cameras, pretending not to hear him. “You don’t want to talk about it, that’s chill.”

We reach the twenty-third floor, where a reception desk welcomes us to DC Investments.

The desk is empty, as are most of the cubicles Rick leads me past on the way to the corner office.

Inside, a guy in the right suit but with Art Garfunkel hair barks what sounds like Japanese into a speakerphone. Danny Carr, I presume. Noticing me, he gestures toward the couch. Noticing Rick, he waves angrily toward the exit. Rick backs out like a geisha, closing the door behind him.

As I settle into the black leather, Danny reaches into a cabinet behind him, pulling out an unfamiliar appliance that reminds me of a birdhouse I built in tenth-grade wood shop. This birdhouse is wired for electricity, I note when he jams the plug into the wall, causing a light in the box to glow neon green.

Without breaking from his conversation in Japanese, Danny returns to the cabinet for a twofoot length of surgical tubing and a small metal disk about the size of a can of Skoal.

“Where’s Carlos?” he says, finishing his call.

Carlos was my predecessor, the kid I’d seen smashing his Motorola in the stairwell. “I’m the new Carlos,” I say.

“New Carlos.” He chuckles. “Like New Coke.

Let’s hope you last a little longer. You don’t look like a drug dealer.”

“It’s funny. Everyone keeps telling me that.”

“Carlos and I had a few arrangements, is all.

Among them a little extra juice for making the trip upstairs.” He peels two hundred-dollar bills from a money clip and hands them to me. “You don’t mind, do you?”

“I guess not.” My eyes drift back toward the birdhouse.

“It’s called a vaporizer,” he explains. “My cousin sent me one from Los On-hell-eez. It’s like a health food thing. No tar — just pure THC. Just takes forever to heat up.” Danny pulls out a pack of Vantages and bangs it against his hand a couple of times before offering me one. I shake my head no.

My pager’s already buzzing again.

“I should get going.”

“The Candyman’s work is never done. But while I’ve got you here, let me run something else by you.