We turned more pages, hunting for blank spots. There were many, and all had fanciful names.
At the margins lurked fearsome places the Map called
Looking at the Map of Days, even the places that sounded most forbidding evoked in me a strange longing. It reminded me of long-ago afternoons spent with my grandfather studying historic maps in
While Millard rambled on about the history of the Map, I traced with my finger a vast and trackless desert in Asia.
Maybe it was better, now and then, to wonder.
And then I told them. There was no point in waiting any longer. I just blurted it out: “I’m leaving,” I said. “When this is all over, I’m going back home.”
There was a moment of shocked silence. Emma met my eyes, finally, and I could see tears standing in them.
Then Bronwyn got up from the table and threw her arms around me. “Brother,” she said. “We’ll miss you.”
“I’ll miss you, too,” I said. “More than I can say.”
“But
I put my hand on her head and pushed her back down to the floor. “No, no, it’s got nothing to do with you,” I said. “You were great, Olive.”
Emma stepped forward. “Jacob came here to help us,” she said. “But he has to go back to his old life, while it’s still there waiting for him.”
The children seemed to understand. There was no anger. Most of them seemed genuinely happy for me.
Miss Wren popped her head into the room to give us a quick update—everything was going marvelously, she said. Miss Peregrine was well on her way to recovery. She’d be ready by morning. And then Miss Wren was gone again.
“Thank the gods,” said Horace.
“Thank the birds,” said Hugh.
“Thank the gods
“Thank Jacob, too,” said Millard. “We never would’ve made it this far without him.”
“We never even would’ve made it off the
They all came and hugged me, each of them, one by one. Then they drifted away and only Emma was left, and she hugged me last—a long, bittersweet embrace that felt too much like goodbye.
“Asking you to leave was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do,” she said. “I’m glad you came around. I don’t think I’d have had the strength to ask again.”
“I hate this,” I said. “I wish there were a world where we could be together in peace.”
“I know,” she said. “I know, I know.”
“I wish …,” I started to say.
“Stop,” she said.
I said it anyway. “I wish you could come home with me.”
She looked away. “You know what would happen to me if I did.”
“I know.”
Emma disliked long goodbyes. I could feel her steeling herself, trying to pull her pain inside. “So,” she said, businesslike. “Logistics. When Miss Peregrine turns human, she’ll lead you back through the carnival, into the underground, and when you pass through the changeover, you’ll be back in the present. Think you can manage from there?”
“I think so,” I said. “I’ll call my parents. Or go to a police station, or something. I’m sure there’s a poster of my face in every precinct in Britain by now, knowing my dad.” I laughed a little, because if I hadn’t, I might’ve started crying.
“Okay, then,” she said.
“Okay, then,” I said.