In the Bleak Midwinter

Clare stepped out of rubber rainboots, the only foul-weather footwear she owned since trashing her leather boots last night. She was glad she hadn’t changed into civvies. Her collar and black blouse created a shield dividing the woman who had slogged through an icy stream from the priest who was here to counsel and support this morning. You are what you wear, she could hear her grandmother lecture, stuffing Clare-the-tomboy into a ladylike dress. She plucked a piece of fluff from her ankle-length black wool skirt and followed Russ through the door.

The family room had obviously been a later addition to the old house. Its cathedral ceiling allowed for a Christmas tree that was easily twelve feet high, and the sweep of windows created an unbroken vista of snow and hills. The Fowler men were rising from a cluster of leather-covered love seats and chairs.

“Chief Van Alstyne.” Vaughn Fowler didn’t sound surprised to see a uniformed officer in his home at eleven o’clock on a Sunday morning.

Wesley looked startlingly like his father: same height, same strong features, same heavily-muscled build. His hair was shorter than even his father’s military clip, shaved down to a bare fuzz. His face was strained and weary. He looked older than his eighteen or nineteen years, and Clare thought it entirely possible he could have been the “older man” Katie’s roommates had seen.

“This is my son, Wesley.”

“Sir.” Wesley pumped Russ’s hand.

Vaughn waved Clare over. “Wes, I don’t think you’ve had the chance to meet our new priest yet. This is the Reverend Clare Fergusson.”

“Ma’am.” Clare and Wesley studied each other while shaking hands. He was definitely discomfited to see her. Was it because she was the one who had brought his connection to Katie out in the open? Or because she had brained him with a rock last night? A tough, strong kid like him could have recovered enough from last night’s violence to appear this morning as if nothing had happened.

“Let’s all sit down.” Vaughn gestured Clare to one of the caramel-colored chairs. He was looking the worse for wear, too. As the men took their seats, she wondered if his control of the situation was what was keeping him together. “I’ve been talking with Wes.” Vaughn said, before Russ could speak. “He has something to say to you, Chief.”

The young man stood. “Sir, I am—I was Katie’s boyfriend. I am the baby’s father. There’s no need to do a blood test. I’m responsible.”

Russ laced his hands across his belt. “Sit down, Wes, you’re not on report.” The boy sat, spine held straight and away from the back of the love seat. “So you’re Cody’s father. Were you with her when she had the baby?”

“Yes sir. It was just after Thanksgiving.” He glanced at his father. “I told my folks I was spending a few days with a friend. I took Katie to the Sleeping Hollow Motel, and she . . . she had the baby there.”

“What happened after Katie gave birth?” Clare said.

“We waited a day to make sure he was, you know, okay, then we left him on the steps at St. Alban’s.”

She leaned forward. “Why?”

He glanced at her and then focused his gaze at a point two inches to the left of her head. “Ma’am, we agreed with each other to give the baby up. We thought—I thought, with the Burnses looking to adopt for so long, that it would be easy. Make sure they had the baby and then Katie and I could get back to our lives.”

Clare steepled her fingers against her lips, holding back her reaction to such raw thoughtlessness.

“I didn’t know the police would get involved!” he said. “I didn’t know she would—” he caught his breath. “I just found out last week she had been, had been, killed. Alyson called me.” Clare noticed a distinct lack of warmth when he mentioned his official girlfriend’s name. “She said Ethan had been arrested for the murder.”

“Ethan Stoner was arrested for threatening an officer and resisting arrest.” Russ said. “He’s no longer a suspect in the murders.”

Wesley drew a deep breath. “I didn’t kill Katie or her father. Sir. I—” his voice broke, a reminder that he was barely more than a boy after all. “I cared for her very much.” He looked at Clare, square on. “I guess it was stupid to just leave the baby. But I knew there was a meeting that night, and that somebody would find him quickly. I thought once he was gone everything could be normal again.”

His distress caught at Clare. “Pretending nothing happened can’t right the world again, though, can it?”

He shook his head. “I want to do the right thing. Even though it’s too late for . . . Katie. I’m ready to take care of the baby, to be his father.” He glanced at his own father. “I’ve discussed it with my folks.”

“That’s a very stirring sentiment from a boy facing a double murder rap,” Russ said.

Vaughn laid a hand on Wesley’s shoulder. “My son has said he had nothing to do with the murders of the girl or her father, and I believe him. He’s a Fowler. He wasn’t raised to tell lies.”