Joyland

"Look at your clothes, silly boy," Rozzie said, pronouncing the last two words seely poy.

I looked. Above my yellow workboots I saw jeans (with the recommended brand of rawhide gloves sticking out of the back pocket), and above my jeans was a blue chambray workshirt, faded but reasonably clean. On my head was an admirably battered Howie dogtop, the finishing touch that means so much.

"What about them?" I said. I was starting to get a little mad.

"Kinda hangin on ya, aren't they?" Lane said. "Didn't used to.

How much weight you lost?"

"Jesus, I don't know. Maybe we ought to go see Fat Wally."

Fat Wally ran the guess-your-weight joint.

"Is not funny," Fortuna said. "You can't wear that damn dog costume half the day under the hot summer sun, then swallow two more salt pills and call it a meal. Mourn your lost love all you want, but eat while you do it. Eat, dammit!"

"Who's been talking to you? Tom?" No, it wouldn't have been him. "Erin. She had no business-"

"No one has been talking to me," Rozzie said. She drew herself up impressively. "I have the sight."

"I don't know about the sight, but you've got one hell of a nerve."

All at once she reverted to Rozzie. ''I'm not talking about psychic sight, kiddo, I'm talking about ordinary woman-sight.

You think I don't know a lovestruck Romeo when I see one?

After all the years I've been gigging palms and peeping the crystal? Hah!" She stepped forward, her considerable breastworks leading the way. "I don't care about your love life; I just don't want to see you taken to the hospital on July Fourth when it's supposed to hit ninety-five in the shade, by the way with heat prostration or something worse."

Lane took off his derby, peered into it, and re-set it on his head cocked the other way. "What she won't come right out and say because she has to protect her famous crusty reputation is we all like you, kid. You learn fast, you do what's asked of you, g6 you're honest, you don't make no trouble, and the kids love you like mad when you're wearing the fur. But you'd have to be blind not to see something's wrong with you. Rozzie thinks girl trouble. Maybe she's right. Maybe she ain't."

Rozzie gave him a haughty dare-you-doubt-me stare.

"Maybe your parents are getting a divorce. Mine did, and it damn near killed me. Maybe your big brother got arrested for selling dope-"

"My mother's dead and I'm an only child," I said sulkily.

"I don't care what you are in the straight world," he said.

"This is Joyland. The show. And you're one of us. Which means we got a right to care about you, whether you like it or not. So get something to eat."

"Get a lot to eat," Rozzie said. "Now, noon, all day. Every day. And try to eat something besides fried chicken where, I tell you what, there's a heart attack in every drumstick. Go in Rock Lobster and tell them you want a take-out of fish and salad. Tell them to make it a double. Get your weight up so you don't look like the Human Skeleton in a ten-in-one." She turned her gaze on Lane. "It's a girl, of course it is. Anybody can see that."

"Whatever it is, stop fucking pining," Lane said.

"Such language to use around a lady," Rozzie said. She was sounding like Fortuna again. Soon she'd come out with Ziss is vat za spirits vant, or something equivalent.

"Ah, blow it out," Lane said, and walked back toward the Spin.

When he was gone, I looked at Rozzie. She really wasn't much in the mother-figure department, but right then she was what I had. "Roz, does everyone know?"

She shook her head. "Nah. To most of the old guys, you're just another greenie jack-of-all-trades… although not as green as you were three weeks ago. But many people here like you, and they see something is wrong. Your friend Erin, for one.

Your friend Tom for another." She said friend like it rhymed with rent. "I am another friend, and as a friend I tell you that you can't fix your heart. Only time can do that, but you can fix your body. Eat!"

"You sound like a Jewish mother joke," I said.

"I am a Jewish mother, and believe me, it's no joke."

''I'm the joke," I said. "I think about her all the time."

"That you can't help, at least for now. But you must turn your back on the other thoughts that sometimes come to you."

I think my mouth dropped open. I'm not sure. I know I stared.

People who've been in the business as long as Rozzie Gold had been back then-they are called mitts in the Talk, for their palmistry skills-have their ways of picking your brains so that what they say sounds like the result of telepathy, but usually it's just close observation.

Not always, though.

"I don't understand."

"Give those morbid records a rest, do you understand that?"

She looked grimly into my face, then laughed at the surprise she saw there. "Rozzie Gold may be just a Jewish mother and grandmother, but Madame Fortuna sees much."