Just Another Sucker

I wrenched open her fingers and got the keys. As we struggled, she slipped and fell on her knees.

I let go of her and stood away, breathing heavily. I felt like hell.

She remained on her knees, her face in her hands and she began to cry.

I dropped the keys into my pocket.

‘I’m sorry, Nina.’ I could scarcely get the words out. ‘I didn’t mean to hurt you. Please don’t cry.’

I wanted to pick her up but I was too ashamed even to touch her.

She remained on her knees for about two minutes while I stood there, watching her. Then slowly she got up, holding her wrist.

We faced each other.

‘You had better tell me the truth,’ she said. ‘What have you done?’

‘I haven’t done a thing,’ I said. ‘Forget it. I’m sorry I hurt you.’

‘Will you please give me my car keys? I want to open the trunk of the car.’

‘For God’s sake, Nina! Will you stop it! I told you to forget it. Don’t you understand? You’ve got to forget it.’

She held out her hand.

‘Give me my keys.’

‘You little fool!’ I said desperately. ‘Keep out of this! I’m not giving you the keys!’

She sat down abruptly, staring at me.

‘What’s in the trunk you’re so frightened I’ll see – so frightened those two soldiers would see? Harry!

Don’t tell me that – the girl is in the trunk?’

Sweat was glistening on my face now and I was shaking.

‘Listen to me,’ I said. ‘You’ve got to pack a bag and go to a hotel! I must be alone here tonight! Will you please, please do what I’m asking and don’t ask questions?’

‘Oh, Harry!’ She was staring at me now in horror. ‘Tell me it’s not true! I can’t believe it! Harry!

She’s not in there, is she?’

‘Stop asking questions!’ I slammed my clenched fists together. ‘Go and pack a bag! Get out of here!

Can’t you see I have enough on my mind without having to worry about you?’

‘Is she dead? She must be dead! Did you kill her?’

I went up to her, grabbed her by her arms and pulling her upright, I shook her.

‘Stop asking questions! You know nothing! Do you understand that? Nothing! Now get out and keep away until tomorrow.’

She pulled free and moved away from me, her hands to her face. Then suddenly she seemed to relax and she lowered her hands.

‘I’m not going,’ she said, her voice quiet and steady. ‘Stop shouting Harry, and sit down. We’re going to share this thing. Please tell me what has happened.’

‘Do you want me to hit you?’ I snarled at her. ‘Can’t you get it into your head you could go to prison for years if you know anything about this? Don’t you understand? I’m trying to save you. You’ve got to leave here and at once!’

She looked steadily at me, shaking her head.

‘The last time you were in trouble you kept me out of it and made me an outsider. You’re not doing that to me again. I’m going to help you in any way I can.’

‘I don’t want your help!’ I said violently. ‘Now get out!’

‘I’m not going, Harry.’

I started a swing, the flat of my hand aiming at her face, but I couldn’t hit her. My hand dropped to my side. I stared helplessly at her, feeling completely defeated.

‘Did you kill her, Harry?’

‘No.’

‘But she is in the trunk?’

‘Yes.’

‘Dead?’

‘Yes.’

Nina shuddered, and for a long moment the only sound in the bungalow was the steady ticking of the hall clock.

‘What are you going to do?’ she asked finally.

‘I’ll hire a car, and take her out to the Petrie silver mine.’

‘We haven’t the money to hire a car.’

I dropped wearily into a chair.

‘I have the ransom money.’

Nina got up and made two drinks. She gave me one and drank the other. Then she sat on the arm of my chair, her hand on mine.

‘Please tell me how it happened: right from the beginning.’

‘If the police catch up with me,’ I said, ‘and they find out you know about this, you’ll go to jail for ten years; maybe longer.’

‘Don’t let’s think about it.’ The touch of her fingers on my hand had a soothing effect. ‘Please start right from the beginning. I want to know what happened, and please tell me everything.’

So I told her. I held nothing back. I even told her that Odette and I had been lovers.

‘I couldn’t leave her in the cabin,’ I concluded. ‘I was going to hide her in the mine when the damn car broke down.’

Nina’s hand closed over mine and gripped it hard.

‘You poor darling. You must have had a dreadful time. I had a feeling something was wrong, but I never imagined it could be so terribly bad.’

Somehow, sharing this thing with her, made me feel better. I didn’t feel so scared. My mind, up to now frozen with panic, felt more able to cope with what lay ahead.

‘Well, now you know,’ I said. ‘I’ve no excuse to offer. I did it for the money. It was wrong, but that doesn’t help to know that now. If I had waited, this job would have come along, and we could have been happy. I didn’t wait and I’ve got myself into this mess. You must leave me, Nina. I mean it. I can handle it on my own. I don’t want you mixed up in it. If anything goes wrong and I’m caught, I couldn’t bear the thought of you getting caught too. That would be the last straw. Can’t you see that? You must keep out of it.’