King Rat

“Wait a minute!” the captain shouted after him. Then he approached another man, but the man turned tail and fled too. And all the men fled from the captain.

The second great fear engulfed Changi.

Fear of myself. Am I all right? Am I, after all this time? I mean, am I all right in the head? It is three and a half years. And my God, remember what Van der Zelt said about impotence? Will it work? Will I be able to make love? Will I be all right? I saw the horror in the eyes of the captain when he looked at me. Why? What was wrong? Do you think, dare I ask him, dare I … am I all right?

When the King first heard about the officer, he was lying on his bed, brooding. True, he still had the choice position under the window, but now he had the same space as the other men—six feet by four feet. When he had returned from the north garden he had found his bed and chairs moved, and other beds were now spread into the space that was his by right. He had said nothing and they had said nothing, but he had looked at them and they had all avoided his eyes.

And, too, no one had collected or saved his evening meal. It had just been consumed by others.

“Gee,” Tex had said absently, “I guess we forgot about you. Better be here next time. Every man’s responsible for his own chow.”

So he had cooked one of his hens. He had cleaned it and fried it and eaten it. At least he had eaten half of it and kept half of it for breakfast. Now he had only two hens left. The others had been consumed during the last days—and he had shared them with the men who had done the work.

Yesterday he had tried to buy the camp store, but the pile of money that the diamond had brought was worthless. In his wallet he still had eleven American dollars, and these were good currency. But he knew—chilled—he could not last forever on eleven dollars and two hens.

He had slept little the previous night. But in the bleak watches of the early morning he had faced himself and told himself that this was weak and foolish and not the pattern of a King—it did not matter that when he had walked the camp earlier people had looked through him—Brant and Prouty and Samson and all the others had passed by and not returned his salute. It had been the same with everyone. Tinker Bell and Timsen and the MP’s and his informants and employees—men he had helped or known or sold for or given food or cigarettes or money. They had all looked at him as though he did not exist. Where always eyes had been watching him, and hate had been surrounding him when he walked the camp, now there was nothing. No eyes, no hate, no recognition.

It had been freezing to walk the camp a ghost. To return to his home a ghost. To lie in bed a ghost.

Nothingness.

Now he was listening as Tex poured out to the hut the incredible news of the captain’s arrival, and he could sense the new fear gnawing at them.

“What’s the matter?” he said. “What’re you all so goddam silent about? A guy’s arrived from outside, that’s all.”

No one said anything.

The King got up, galled by the silence, hating it. He put on his best shirt and his clean pants and wiped the dust off his polished shoes. He set his cap at a jaunty angle and stood for a moment in the doorway.

“Think I’m going to have me a cook-up today,” he said to no one in particular.

When he glanced around he could see the hunger in their faces and the barely concealed hope in their eyes. He felt warmed again and normal again, and looked at them selectively.

“You going to be busy today, Dino?” he said at length.

“Er, no. No,” Dino said.

“My bed needs fixing and there’s some laundry.”

“You, er, want me to do them?” Dino asked uncomfortably.

“You want to?”

Dino swore under his breath, but the remembrance of the perfume of the chicken last night shattered his will. “Sure,” he said.

“Thanks, pal,” said the King derisively, amused by Dino’s obvious struggle with his conscience. He turned and started down the steps.

“Er, which hen d’you want to have?” Dino called out after him.

The King did not stop. “I’ll think about that,” he said. “You just fix the bed and the laundry.”

Dino leaned against the doorway, watching the King walk in the sun along the jail wall and around the corner of the jail. “Son of a bitch!”

“Go get the laundry,” Tex said.

“Crap off! I’m hungry.”

“He aced you into doing his work without any goddam chicken.”

“He’ll eat one today,” Dino said stubbornly. “And I’ll help him eat it. He’s never eaten one before without giving the helper some.”

“What about last night?”

“Hell, he was fit to be tied ’cause we took over his space.” Dino was thinking about the English captain and home and his girl friend and wondered if she was waiting or if she was married. Sure, he told himself sullenly, she’ll be married and no one’ll be there. How the hell am I going to get me a job?