На Крыльях Надежды. Поэзия

Ответь же мне ты хоть сейчас, кто право дал вам то подчас грехи людей искоренять, за деньги бесов отгонять? И с чьего вы благословенья совсем без бога дозволенья решать хотите за людей, кто свят из них, а кто злодей, и кому в рай дорога прямо, а кому в лес сплошь из бурьяна?

На кой свободе все догматы? На кой костыль - мы не хроматы? На кой твой бог нам, хреносвят? Мы силами до райских врат своими сможем добрести - и ты не нужен на пути.

А потому прошу тебя: других вокруг себя любя, сумей ты людям другом стать - и навсегда от них отстать!

01.07.2007

"Н" значит: Надежда

Enough

I am the man of sorts, you know,

And I can feel yours feelings flow,

And haven't mastered mine for now...

My love to you I did bestow.

What was my reason for such move?

To you my love I'll never prove,

For you I'm but another buff,

So I am saying now - enough!

What was I thinking all that time?

You were your own, never mine,

Sometimes all kind, in times all rough ...

But it's still such worthless stuff.

I am alone, I always was,

I am still living in the doze

That someone will accept my love ...

I will awaken, it's enough!

I'm tired of that endless fight,

I am no moth that will not bite

And crawl through your endless bluff ...

No more lying - it's enough!

I was the one to help you flight

And threw your past out of sight,

And yet it came to such a blight ...

In that I'm guilty - and still right.

I can forgive, I will forget

Of our past that makes me sad,

Such pretty looking, useless stuff...

No more such memories, enough!

I have no willing to decide

Of who is guilty, who is right,

The separation is too tough,

No more talk for now ... enough.

03.11.2008

I am walking through the rain …

I am walking through the rain

And my soul groans with pain,

Cursed be the love like blain -

It’s the soul’s bloody stain!

This is like the hellish rain -

One without goodness gain,

One with brutal, sudden end,

Greatest torture of the land.

I am screaming in the night,

I am begging for the light -

One to free me of the chain,

And extinguish fiery rain,

One to heal scorched heart,

One to be my soul guard,

One to help me understand

That nowhere in earth land

It is possible to find

Shining love, still being blind,

Golden heart, all being poor,

Paradise with lifetime guar.

I am passing in the night

And its darkness makes me blind,

And its chill touch makes me wonder

Will I need those lights with thunder,

Will I live that life with pain

As remainder of my gain,

As a token of my blight,

As a sign of former might?

There is no escape, no hiding

From that constant essence tidying,

From that endless stream of pain …

No escape from hellish rain.

Let it rain, I don't care!

Almost naked, soul-bare,

I will stand against pain,

I will bless my burning rain,

I shall find way through the night,

And will earn the other sight,

Truly love I shall once find,

On its wings I'll fly with wind.

I am walking through the rain,

I have thrown away the pain,

I am singing in the night …

Gleam in tunnel shines me bright.

20.08.2007

I cannot …

I can't hold my tears,

My soul is on the spears,

I cannot stop my mind,

Tranquility can’t find.

I've lost my will in space,

I've sold my soul in time,

I've burned my wings in race …

Will peace be ever mine?

I cannot hold my anger

Even in times of danger,

Even in times of need

My spirit it still feed.

I cannot find the hope -

My fate is but to mope,

My fate is to obey,

I'm a useless prey.

I cannot see the light -

It is but darkest night,

I've lost my right and ways

To walk in sunny rays.

I've lost my faith in all …

Is that how we do fall?

Is that how we become

Ghosts in the days to come?

I may not see the light,

Yet I was always right -

Once anger makes you blind

Yours peace you'll never find.

Once soul becomes a mess

You will start to regress,

And one day you'll become

Shadow in days to come.

I cannot hold my tears

They came, my darkest fears -

I shall not stop the mind

Thus peace I'll never find...

18.03.2007

Magic

It is but magic, foulest sort,

And for this world I have retort -

My run is not like endless sport,

In love and peace I want resort!

I've seen them all, I've met a lot,

But chosen one I've found not.

I've grown strong, earn more money...

I'm still alone ... is that but funny?!

I want to love, enough of tortures,

Enough of endless, useless searches!

Enough of pain for the heart

And throw away that fucked regard!

Enough of quirks, my buggy mind,

The one I want I'll never find!

Her image died so long ago...

I cannot find her in the Row!

They are all busy, or have man,

This but repeats for now and then,

They disappeared all in mist

And left me with my tears to feast.

I've talked them all, I've seen a lot,

I've left my hopes for now to rot

And only pain I've got,

But chosen one I've found not...

30.01.2008

No one care

Stop crying now, there is no one

To help you, man, they all but gone,

They disappeared with the wind,

Theirs empathy you shall not find.

You see it now? You’re left alone,

Your so-called 'friends' were quickly gone,

And so-called 'love' abandoned you,