"Kaja-Rang tried to help me with the words revealed on the statue, the words I told you-Deserve Victory. They were, first of all, meant for me."
"I don't understand," Anson said.
"I told you that your life is your own to live and that you have every right to defend it.
"Yet, I was telling myself that I had to balance the killing I did to defend my life and the lives of my loved ones by not eating meat-in essence, saying my self-defense, my killing of those who attack me and other innocent people, was morally wrong, and so for the killing I'd done I needed to make amends to the magic that helped me by offering it the appeasement of balance."
"But your sword's magic didn't work, either," Jennsen said.
"No, it didn't, and that should have been the thing that made me realize what the problem was, because both my gift and the sword's magic are different entities, yet they reacted logically to the same unreasoned action on my part. The sword's magic began to fail because I myself, by not eating meat, was saying that I did not completely believe that I was justified in using force to stop others who initiate violence.
"The sword's magic functions through the belief structure of the sword's owner; it only works against what the Seeker himself perceives as the enemy. The sword's magic will not work against a friend. That was the key I should have understood.
"When I thought that the use of the sword had to be balanced, I was, in effect, expressing a belief that my actions were in some way unjustified.
Therefore, because I held that remnant of faith in a false concept that had been inculcated in me throughout my life, just as all the people of Bandakar were taught-that killing was always wrong-the sword's magic began to fail me.
"The Sword of Truth's magic, as my gift, could only again be viable when I comprehended-completely-that the magic needs no balance for the killing I've done because the killing I've done is not only moral, but the only moral course of action I could have taken.
"By not eating meat, I was acknowledging that some part of my mind believed the same thing that the people here in Bandakar believed when we first met Owen and his men-that killing is always wrong.
"By thinking that I must not eat meat as a balance, I was denying the moral necessity of self-preservation, denying the essential of protecting the value of life. The very act of seeking 'balance' for what I'm right in doing is a conflict which is what was causing the headaches and also caused the Sword of Truth's power to fail me. I was doing it to myself."
Richard had violated the Wizard's First Rule by believing a lie- that it was always wrong to kill-because he feared it was true. He had also violated the Second Rule, among others, but most grievous of all, he had violated the Sixth Rule. In so doing, he had ignored reason in favor of blind faith. The failure of his gift and the sword's power was a direct result of not applying reasoned thought.
Fortunately, with the Eighth Rule, he had come to reexamine his actions and finally realized the flaw in his thinking. Only then was he able to correct the situation.
In the end, he had fulfilled the Eighth Rule.
Richard shifted his weight to the other foot as he gazed at the faces watching him. "I had to come to understand that my actions are moral and need no balance, but are in themselves balanced by my reasoned actions, that killing is sometimes not only justified, but the only right and moral thing to do.
"I had to come to understand the very thing I was asking all of you to understand. I had to understand that I must deserve victory."
Owen looked over at those with him and then scratched his head. "Well, considering everything, I guess we can understand how you could make such a misjudgment."
Jennsen, her red hair standing out against the green of the trees and fields, squinted at him in the sunlight. "Well," she said with a sigh, "I'm glad to be pristinely ungifted. Being a wizard sounds awfully hard."
The men all nodded while voicing their agreement.
Richard smiled at Jennsen. "A lot of things in life are hard to figure out. Like what you've been considering. What have you decided?"
Jennsen clasped her hands and glanced over at Owen, Anson, and all the rest of the people with them.
"Well, this is no longer a banished empire. It's no longer an empire naked to the aggression of tyrants. It's part of the D'Haran Empire, now.
These people want the same as us.
"I think I'd like to stay with them for a while and help them come to be part of the wider world, just as I've been starting to do. It's kind of exciting. I'd like to take your suggestion, Richard, and help them in that."
Richard smiled at his sister. He ran his hand down her beautiful red hair.
"On a condition," she added.
Richard let his hand drop back. "Condition?"
"Sure. I'm a Rahl, so… I was kind of thinking that I ought to have some proper protection. I could be a target, you know. People want to kill me. Jagang would love to-"