[Quinn 04] - The Silenced

After that the conversation turned back to the safer topic of life in Paris.

Before they realized it, it was starting to get dark. At Liz’s suggestion, they headed to the Latin Quarter to get some dinner.

The area was a maze of narrow cobbled streets closed off to most traffic and reserved, instead, for pedestrians. Along each road, restaurants and clubs vied for space and customers, some using touts and others lights and aromas.

Liz chose a cozy place that was about five times longer than it was wide. There they shared a cheese fondue and a bottle of wine.

By the time they got home it was after 9 p.m. Nate excused himself to use the bathroom, where he shot off two quick texts. Both were basically the same. To Quinn he wrote:

In for the night. All clear here.

And to Julien:

Done 4 today. Bed soon.

As Nate washed his hands, his phone buzzed once in his pocket. On the screen was a reply from Julien.

What? No late-night disco?

Nate texted back:

If you’re up for it, I can suggest it.

A few seconds later, Julien responded:

Do it.

Nate smiled, then tapped in one last message:

Good night, Julien.

When he returned to the living room, he half expected Liz to have already gone to bed. But she was sitting on the couch, an open bottle of wine and two glasses on the coffee table in front of her.

He joined her, sitting near but not too close. She poured wine into both of the glasses, then raised hers.

“To your first night in Paris,” she said.

“To making a new friend,” he countered. They touched glasses, then each took a drink.

By now Nate was starting to feel the effects of the wine. He wasn’t drunk, but he was less in control than he should have been. He was there on a job, he reminded himself. He’d have to nurse this glass for the rest of the evening.

“So what do you think of my brother?” Liz asked.

“He seems fine,” Nate replied, as naturally as he could. “I didn’t really spend that much time with him, and I’ve only met him once before. You know how it is, right, meeting a friend of your parents? What do you talk about?”

Liz smiled as she leaned back. She looked comfortable, totally relaxed. She raised her glass to her lips and took another drink.

“When I was a little girl, Jake was my hero. You know, one of those people who can do no wrong. I wanted to hang around him all the time. He was older, he didn’t have to, but he let me anyway.”

Another dangerous topic, but for a moment Nate’s curiosity won out over his caution. “How much older?”

“Eight years.”

“That is quite a bit.”

“Eight years and seven months, actually.”

Nate instinctively knew the next question he should ask. “Do you have any other brothers or sisters?”

She said nothing for a moment. “We did.”

“Oh. I’m sorry,” Nate said. “We can change the subject.”

“No, it’s all right,” she said. “We had a brother. Davey. He was in between us. But he died in a car accident when he was five, I think. I don’t remember him.”

“Oh, God. I really am sorry.”

“I was in the accident, too. The whole family was. You want to see my scar?”

She sat up suddenly, a little unsteady from the wine, and began working her fingers through her hair.

“It’s okay,” Nate said. “I believe you.”

“See?” she said.

She had created a part across her scalp that revealed a portion of a scar that looked like it ran for several inches.

“That must have hurt,” Nate said.

“I’m sure it did. I’m told there was a lot of blood.”

“Head wounds have a way of doing that.”

“Oh, really? And you know this how?”

He shrugged. “Grew up watching ER on TV.”

She snickered, then let her hair fall down as she leaned back. “I wasn’t even two yet. This is the only proof I have that the accident even happened. Well, and Davey’s grave, I guess.”

Nate tried to stop himself, but he couldn’t. “So what happened between you and Jake?”

“One night he just left,” she said. “I was nine.”

That surprised Nate. “He ran away from home?”

“Can you really call someone who leaves home at seventeen a runaway?” she asked. “All I know is he was gone.”

“For how long?”

“The first time I saw him after that,” she said, “was last month at our father’s funeral.”

“Whoa,” Nate said. “That’s a long time.”

“The only reason I knew he wasn’t dead was because he still keeps in contact with Mom. She asked me once if he’d ever been in touch with me. I lied and told her he had. Mom’s always had this kind of defeated sense to her. I guess I just didn’t want to add to it.”

“Look, you don’t need to—”

“I thought I’d moved past him, forgotten about him. But then the funeral, and now here.” Her eyes started to glisten. “He never called me. He never wrote. I don’t understand why.”

Tears began to slide down her cheeks, then she took a big gulp of air and could no longer keep herself from sobbing.

Without even thinking, Nate reached out and pulled her into his arms, letting her bury her face in his shoulder. He rubbed her back, and every once in a while whispered, “It’s okay” or “Just let it out.”