Shades

Gustav was visibly startled. Bedrik’s smile grew wider. The Russian hadn’t expected him to know his magical name.

Come outside, Gustav thought. Say hello, yes?

You’re a fool, Bedrik replied. Do you really think I’d breach the circle? If you wish to draw me out and challenge me, you’ll have to do better than this transparent ploy. Really, I’m surprised—and disappointed. After all I’ve heard about you. I’d expect better than this.

Gustav didn’t respond. The old man suddenly seemed distracted. Bedrik frowned, glancing again at his ruined yard.

When he looked up again, Gustav was gone.

“Damn,” Bedrik swore. “I’ll need to move faster.”

789

His mother wasn’t home. Danny wasn’t surprised. He hadn’t expected her to be. A quick check of the cupboard confirmed that they were out of booze. She was probably down at Giordano’s liquor store, restocking. That was the only time she left the house, other than for work.

Danny fixed himself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, but threw it away after two bites. He had no appetite. He turned on the television and watched a few minutes of Sanford and Son before turning it off again. He wasn’t in the mood to laugh. Danny felt like dying; he wanted to crawl into bed, curl up into a ball, and just float away. He wished for his mother, wished she was there to give him a hug and tell him it would be okay.

But the only thing his mother hugged was the vodka bottles.

He bet the Giordano kids were getting hugged by their mother tonight.

Sometimes, he wished he could wipe Giordano’s Happy Bottle Shop off the planet. Toss a Molotov cocktail through their window, like on The A-Team, and just burn the place down. But could he stop there? Sometimes, when he slept, Danny had dreams in which the entire world was on fire. The dreams ended differently, depending on when he woke up, but they always started the same—at Giordano’s.

When she was sober, Danny’s mom was quiet and depressed. When she’d been drinking, she was loud and angry—or stupefied. Regardless of her state of mind, she was never the mother he’d had when his dad was alive. His memories of a happy mom were rapidly fading, just like the memories of his father. Sometimes, he had to look at his father’s picture to remember the contours of his face or the smell of his aftershave.

He looked at his mother’s picture to remember her smile.

The tears surprised him, sudden in their ferocity. His body trembled. His breath caught in his throat. His chest hurt. Danny sat on the couch in his quiet, empty home and cried harder than he ever had before. He cried for his parents, and for his friends, and for himself.

And when it was over, Danny decided it was time to make things better. Magic affected change in the magician’s reality. The easiest place to start was his mom.

Gustav had told him to study, so study he had; learning about alcoholism and the human brain, dependency and depression. Some of it didn’t make much sense, but he thought he was ready for what had to be done. First, he had to get his mother over her dependency, change her programming. Next, he had to prevent her body from crashing as the alcohol left her system. She’d been a functional alcoholic for a long time now, and he knew the physical withdrawals would be bad. He’d read that some people actually died from the DTs. He couldn’t let that happen to her.

Step one, relaxation. Preparing his mind and body were essential. He had to be calm and alert. Danny began some deep breathing exercises that Gustav had shown him, forcing his breaths to come in slow and deep and exhaling so that he completely cleared his lungs. When he was ready, he focused on his mother. There were a lot of things that could go wrong, if he didn’t do this right. Visualization was the key to success. He had to visualize the alcoholism as a living, breathing entity dwelling within his mother, and then destroy it without affecting any other part of her mind. In changing their reality, he didn’t want to change his mom; he just wanted her to be free from the booze. He wanted her to be happy again.

He kept his eyes shut and floated, his breathing shallow and rhythmic. Then, in the silence, he heard a whisper—the whip crack of a feather, the echo of a cat barking. It seemed to come from nowhere and everywhere. Danny’s eyes blinked open and he sat up straight. The living room was dark and empty. He was alone.

But the sound continued.