Temple of the Winds

The stem of a rose was stuck behind his belt. Richard lifted the rose and held it out to her. "Your mother gave this to me." "My mother?"

Richard nodded. "She asked if I found enjoyment in it, and when I told her that I did, she asked if I would then return to you. It took a long time for me to understand what she meant." "And what did she mean?"

"What she meant is that we have the capacity to enjoy such things. Is it wrong for you to find pleasure at the sight of a rose, in its fragrance, if I am not the one who gave it to you? How can I forgive you that?"

"Richard, this is far different from finding pleasure in the fragrance of a rose." He sank to one knee. He put a fist to his abdomen. "Kahlan. I was once connected to a woman by my flesh, as you were connected to your mother. That is the only connection of flesh we have in this life."

His fist moved to his chest. It is here that we connect ever after that. We can be connected only in our hearts. You did not give him your heart. That was mine and mine alone.

"The winds, the spirits, took their price from you. They left you with little, and you chose to take what was left and to live. You chose to be human. You chose to live life as best you could with what you had left of yourself. You fought for life. You simply took pleasure to which you were entitled.

"I do not own you. You are not my slave. There is nothing for me to forgive. You did not betray me in your heart. It would be presumption of the worst order if I came with an offer of forgiveness when you never betrayed me with your heart." Kahlan could feel herself trembling as she drew a breath. "You hurt me. Richard. I thought my heart was safe with you, always, no matter what, and you walked away from me. You promised it was. You wouldn't even let me try to explain." "I know," he whispered.

His other knee touched the floor as he bent at her feet. His head bowed. "That is why I have returned. I have come to beg your forgiveness. I am the one who was wrong. I am the one who caused the true pain. I am the one who betrayed our hearts, not you. It is the worst sin I could commit, and I alone am guilty of it.

"I am without defense. There can be no excuse. "I'm so sorry for what I've done to you, Kahlan. I cannot undo the wrong I have done. I have wounded your heart, and for that, I throw myself before you, and beg your forgiveness. I do not deserve it, and so cannot ask it; I can only beg it."

The way he knelt at her feet, she lowered over him. "Will you forgive me, Richard?"

''There is no room in my heart to hold anything for you but love, even though we cannot be together. Though I am free of my oath, you are sworn to another, and I must respect that, but I cannot help that I can love no other but you. If your heart wishes it, then I forgive you.

"Please, Kahlan, all I can have in this life, if you will grant it, is your forgiveness." Mere moments before she had had doubts, been uncertain as to her true feelings about him. Now, absolute conviction avalanched through her.

Kahlan sank down to the floor before him. She put her hands to his shoulders and urged him to look up at her.

"I forgive you, Richard. With all my heart, I love you and I forgive you." He smiled a sad smile. "Thank you."

She could feel the miracle other heart mending, of joy flooding into the emptiness, like life itself returning.

"At the ceremony, when I was being married to Drefan, I said the words aloud that they demanded, but in my mind, in my heart, I was saying the oath of marriage to you."

Richard wiped a tear from her chin. "I did the same." She squeezed his arms. "Richard, what are we going to do now?" "There is nothing to do now. You are sworn to Drefan." She touched her fingers to his face. "But what about you? What about you and me?"

His smile left. He shook his head. "It doesn't matter. I have what I needed- what I came for. You have returned my heart."

"But, how can we go on like this? Not only that, but we have to do something, and fast. Drefan wants to withdraw the troops back to D'Hara and make a stand against the Order there."

Anger flashed in Richard's eyes. "No. You can't let him do that, Kahlan. If you let Jagang divide the New World, he will take it one piece at a time, with D'Hara the last to fall. You can't let Drefan do that. Promise me you won't."

"I don't need to promise. You are Lord Rahl. You can stop it, now. I am the Mother Confessor. We'll do it together." "You must do it, Kahlan. I can't help you."

"But why not? You've returned. Everything will work out. We'll think of something-find a way. You are the Seeker, you always find a way." "I'm dying."

Ice flashed through her. "What? What. . do you mean, you're dying? Richard, you can't die, not now. Not after. . No, Richard, no, it's all right now. You're back. Everything is going to be all right."

She saw it then, the pain in his eyes, and realized, when he slumped to a hip, that he was unable to stand.