Rhun knew how much Eleazar had also given up for the world—and knew it was time for Eleazar to face that past, too.
Rhun reached into the deep pocket inside his cassock and drew out the doll he had retrieved from the dusty tomb in Masada. It was a tattered thing, sewn from leather, long gone hard, with one eye missing. He placed the bit of the painful past into Eleazar’s open palm.
Eleazar had lived for so long that he was more like a statue than any of the Cloistered Ones, resolute, unmoving, more like marble than flesh.
But now those stone fingers shook, barely able to hold aloft the tiny, frail toy. Instead, Eleazar brought it to his chest and cradled it close, as if it were a living child, one he mourned deeply.
“Did she suffer?” he asked.
Rhun thought about the small body hanging on the wall in Masada, pinned by silver bolts that would have burned inside her until she expired.
“She died serving Christ. Her soul is at peace.”
Rhun stood and left the Risen One to his grief.
As Rhun turned away, he caught a glimpse of marble breaking.
Eleazar bowed his head.
A tear fell and spattered mournfully upon the doll’s stained face.
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Rhun ran through the darkness with unearthly speed, a hammer clenched in his hand. It had been many centuries since his feet had walked these pitch-dark tunnels, but the way opened before him as if his body had always known that it would return here.
He descended deeper than the temple of the Cloistered Ones, deeper than most dared venture. Here he had hidden his greatest secret. He had lied to Bernard; he had broken his vows; he had done penance for it, but never enough.
And now his sin was the only thing that might save them.
He stopped before a featureless wall, ran one hand across it, felt no seam. He had covered it well, four hundred years before.
Rhun raised the hammer above his head and struck the wall. Stone shuddered under the blow. It gave. A mere hairsbreadth, but it gave.
He struck again and again. Bricks crumbled until a small opening appeared. Barely large enough to admit him. That was all he needed.
He climbed through the rough stone, not caring how it scratched his skin. He had to reach the dark room beyond.
Once there, he lit a candle he had brought along with him. The scent of honey and beeswax unfolded in the chamber, driving back the odors of stone, decay, and staleness.
The pale yellow flame reflected off the polished surface of a black marble coffin.
He worked the lid off and lowered it to the rough stone floor of the cell.
The smell of sacramental wine bloomed free. The wet black surface drank the light.
Before he drew out the contents, Rhun cupped his hand and drank of the wine. He would need every ounce of holy fortification for the task ahead. But before the strength, as always, came the penance.