The Coldest Blood

Dryden recognized the face but everything else was different. She danced with arms thrown free at her side, her hair turning and rising, both feet just clear of the ballroom floor.

‘It’s here,’ he said, tapping his shoe on the wooden polished boards.

She nodded, reaching out to reclaim the image.

Fleet appeared with the third round of cocktails and she took an inch off the top. ‘I don’t think anyone approved – but Chips was good looking, great fun. He loved the camp, wanted to make a go of it too. We’d been at school together, so there was nothing of the whirlwind about it, quite the opposite. I was very lucky, actually, and very happy.

‘But there was an accident.’ She touched her forehead at the precise spot Dryden had noted the scar on her husband’s forehead. ‘He was diving – in the main pool. We had a high board then…’

Dryden nodded, remembering the falling bodies, the thrill of danger.

‘A child, just toddling, pushed one of the pedalos on the poolside into the water. It drifted under the board – Chips didn’t see it until he was falling. There was a lot of blood…’ Dryden thought how pale she always was. ‘The skull was split, there was some damage to the brain where it had been crushed up against the serrated bones behind the forehead – it’s a common feature of car-crash injuries. He came back quickly enough, that was Christmas ’73, and in many ways he seemed unhurt. The good humour was there, but there was something childlike after that… and there were childlike fears. He seemed to find people very frightening, especially close up, and he was genuinely terrified by emotions. There was a loss of something. He’d always been so good with people… but now, he was very cold. It was like he couldn’t imagine how anyone else felt.’

She lifted the crease of the perfectly laundered tracksuit bottoms.

‘There were panic attacks, crises of anxiety which just swept over him for no apparent reason. We’d find he was gone, and we’d search the camp – which was embarrassing in season – and then they’d find him, usually in the dunes, as far away from the crowds as he could get. It wasn’t just the people – it was the unpredictability, the not knowing if he’d have to meet someone new.

‘Anyway. We carried on, hoping it would get better. He still enjoyed the pool work – I think that was because he was in control, and he was with the children. And he was very good at some things – in fact he’d got better at some things. He had an amazing recall for names, which is a real plus in this work. And we put him in charge of the beach huts because it was mainly paperwork, and he was meticulous, really. But I didn’t know what to do… he was still very afraid of the world.’

‘He doesn’t want to leave prison,’ said Dryden, sensing at last some real emotion. ‘Why try to get him out?’

‘I’ve said. There’s a difference between innocence and freedom. I’d like to see the record straight – and so would he.’

‘Mrs Connor, if your husband didn’t kill Paul Gedney, who did? You must have thought about that.’

Outside they heard a coach returning, the babble of corporate voices heading towards them. She shuffled the glasses and collected the mats. Then she stopped and looked Dryden in the eyes. ‘If you’d met Paul, I don’t think you would have asked that question, Mr Dryden.’ She’d raised her voice, and Dryden detected the edge of suppressed anger beneath. ‘He collected enemies for a hobby, he had a level of natural arrogance which most people found repellent, and he’d do anything to get what he wanted. It’s a volatile cocktail,’ she said, draining her glass.

‘He’d fallen in with some dangerous people. It’s obvious that he ended up hiding in the marshes, in the Curlew. Clearly, someone found him.’ She stood. ‘I’m sorry. Russell will need a hand. This time of night we’re short of staff – and there’s some illness about, flu and suchlike. We’re a bit stretched.’

Dryden stood too. One more question. ‘I understand the Dolphin paid most of the cost of having the children from St Vincent’s for the holiday. Kids like Joe Petulengo and Declan McIlroy. That was very generous.’

‘Yes. It was. Anything else?’

‘Chips wrote this…’ said Dryden.

He put the piece of paper on the table, spreading it out.

I DIDN’T KNOW.

‘Didn’t know what, do you think?’

She shook her head, but she didn’t move. Dryden watched the estate agents heading in for nightcaps. ‘What do you think Chips would think if he walked through that door right now?’ asked Dryden.

It was a random question, but Dryden could see it had hit home. She couldn’t stop herself looking across the dance floor. ‘I think he’d be angry, angry that he’d lost thirty years of his life, and I think this room would remind him of that. Angry, Mr Dryden, very, very angry.’

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