The Crime Writer

Gently, I replaced the phone in its cradle. Her real message, so different from the altered version played ad nauseam in court. As Preston reminds me every chance he gets, it's all in the editing. Slowly, I reached over and thumbed through the ragged manuscript: Aside from the detectives, Lloyd Wagner would know Genevieve's case better than anyone, having handled everything from recovering my voice-mail messages to matching the knife to the wound.

The original message would have exonerated me, causing the prosecution to drop the case. If no one believed I'd killed Genevieve, Lloyd would have lost his ideal fall guy. A guy whom everyone the cops, the media, the prospective jury pool believed guilty of murder. A guy the detectives would be eager to rush to judgment about. A guy who already half believed he was losing his mind. Lloyd knew he couldn't delete phone and caller ID records, but he could digitally reorganize the voice-mail recording, making it as ambiguous as the rest of the case, before turning it over during discovery. He'd told me himself he couldn't imagine my getting convicted, given the brain tumor. I'd be free yet tainted, available for the frame-up. A story-perfect investigation where no one would dig beneath the skin and find the hidden holes. To be sure, it was a risk, but with his wife's life hanging in the balance, he'd proven all too willing to take gambles.

I played Genevieve's message again, imagining its impact on me the night of September 23. A suicide warning, not a snotty rebuke.

What were the good doctor's words?

"Because the temporal lobe is intricately tied to emotional arousal, there is plentiful evidence that, once a patient has reached such a fragile state, the final mental break can be triggered by an emotionally intense event."

An emotionally intense event. A message from an ex announcing her intention to kill herself would likely qualify.

April, contented midwestern soul, was a deep sleeper. Unlike me, she wouldn't have been roused by the ringing phone. In the darkness of that night, I'd padded into my office, sat, and played Genevieve's message. Startled, I'd risen, my office chair toppling over.

And then, altered and frenzied, I'd hot-assed it over to Genevieve's to find her, in typical dramatic fashion, robed in her best approximation of a geisha, slumped over the blade she'd thrust into her own belly, operatic death song blasting from the walls.

Her prints had been lifted from the handle. That was to be expected her knife, her house. My prints, from removing the knife, had been more eyebrow-raising.

She'd been right-handed, the reverse stab angling the blade as if the thrust had come from a left-handed attacker. As she'd keeled forward, the butt of the knife had struck floor, driving the blade deep enough to suggest that a 185-pound male had been behind the handle.

Straightforward enough to untangle, had I not arrived to fuck up the crime scene.

As a show of gratitude for the revelations the past hours had afforded me, I retrieved an '82 Bordeaux I'd been saving for years and drained it down the kitchen sink. I let Xena lick the neck when I was done. No need to waste it.

I wandered onto my back deck, put my feet on the rail, and stared out at the lights. All those people, all those stories.

Xena chased her stub and rolled in the brittle leaves.

I'd started out innocent and wanting to clear my conscience. I'd discovered I was not a murderer. And I'd wound up a killer.

I could live with that; as someone once told me, generally, we're not given the choice anyway. What a piece of work is man, and all that.

The doorbell rang, a deep chime causing Xena to lift her square head from the union of her paws.

I rose and walked inside.

Chapter 45

I'm a free citizen, at least until my next brain tumor. Cal leaked Genevieve's voice-mail message to the press, which, on the crest of the sensationalist coverage of Lloyd's machinations, restored my name to whatever dubious standing it had achieved before the trial. My sales continue to increase.

A deputy corroborated my account of the jail rec-room incident, but before I could formally file a complaint against Kaden and Delveckio, all pending charges against me were dropped. Morton Frankel awaits trial, but I have been informed that he is as they say in the hallowed halls of Parker Center fucked.

Sometimes Cal drops by and we smoke cigars on the back deck, overlooking the city. He's not promoted yet, but his captain's got his ear to the ground and says any day now. We talked about the case a lot, me and Cal, and then all of a sudden we didn't.

I've still heard nothing from the Bertrands, and doubt I ever will. My association with the ugliness surrounding their daughter has branded me guilty, even if I am not, and I don't begrudge them their construal of events.