The Guilty Are Afraid

I opened it. There were only thirteen matches: the others had been torn out of the folder. Bending the matches back I saw a row of numerals printed on the back of them. The numerals ran from C451148 to C451160.

I knew then this was the match-folder I had found in Sheppey’s suitcase; the one I had hidden under the carpet in my hotel bedroom; the one that had been stolen. As I stared at it, the telephone bell began to ring, making a loud, strident sound in the silent bungalow.

I slid the folder into my pocket and walked over to the telephone and picked up the receiver.

“Hello, yes?” I said, fairly certain who was calling.

“Is that you, Lew?”

Margot’s voice. She sounded a little out of breath.

“Hello again: don’t tell me: I know. You’ve lost something?”

“My bag. Did you find it?”

“It’s right here on one of the tables.”

“Oh, good. I didn’t know if I had left it at the club or in your car. I’m always leaving things in places. I’ll pick it up tomorrow morning unless you are passing and can leave it for me. Could you?”

“That’s all right. I’ll leave it sometime during the morning.”

“Thank you, darling.” There was a pause, then she said, “Lew . . .”

“I ‘m still with you.”

“I’m thinking of you.”

I put my hand in my pocket and fingered the folder.

“I’m thinking of you too.”

“Good night, Lew.”

“Good night, beautiful.”

I waited until I heard her hang up before I replaced the receiver.

III

I awoke around ten o’clock the following morning. For some minutes I lay in the big double bed, staring up at the patterns made by the sun on the ceiling. Then I ran my fingers through my hair, yawned, threw off the sheet and got out of bed.

A long, cold shower brought me fully awake. Wearing only my pyjamas, I went into the kitchen and made some coffee. When it was made, I carried it out and drank it on the terrace.

From where I sat I could see the building that housed the School of Ceramics perched on its rocky peninsula: a low rambling building that had a blue-tiled roof and white walls.

I decided as soon as I was dressed I’d go out there and mix with the tourists and see what there was to see.

When I had finished the coffee, I returned to my bedroom, put on a pair of swimming trunks and then went down to the sea. I spent half an hour proving to myself that I was still as husky and athletic as I liked to think I was. After I had swum out about a quarter of a mile, I found myself getting slightly short of breath, so I turned around and made for the shore, with a longer stroke and at a slower speed.

I went back to the bungalow, dried off, put on a pair of slacks and an open-neck shirt, then, locking up the bungalow, I got in the Buick and set course for Arrow Point.

By then the time was twenty minutes past eleven. If there were going to be tourists, this was the time when they would begin their visit.

I had to get back on to the promenade, and after a five-minute drive, I came upon a branch road which had a sign that said: This way for the School of Ceramics: the Treasure House of Original Design.

As I turned on to the road I saw in my driving mirror a big blue and white rubberneck bus loaded with eager beavers with the usual brick-red faces and awful hats and making the usual over-happy noises.

I pulled to one side and let the rubberneck get ahead of me. It went past with a roar and a stream of dust that kept with me all the way up the long road and through the double gates leading to the blue-tiled building. There were already six cars in the parking lot as I pulled up. An elderly man wearing a white coat, the pocket of which had a design of two fishes floating in a wine-red sea on it, came over and gave me a parking ticket.

“One dollar,” he said with an apologetic smirk as if he knew it was robbery, but there was nothing he could do about it.

“I bet they hate anyone who has the strength to walk,” I said, giving him the dollar.

He said no one ever walked.

I was killing time by talking to him. I wanted the bunch from the bus to get themselves sorted out. I planned to walk in with them.

By the time I had crossed the parking lot, they had got out of the bus and were moving towards the entrance to the building. I tagged along with them.

The courier, a busy, worried little man, bought tickets at the door and shepherded his flock through a turnstile into a big hall. I paid out another dollar, was given a ticket by a hard-eyed man in a white coat with the fish symbol showing on his pocket.

He told me if I bought anything I’d get a refund on my ticket.

“Heads you win, tails I lose,” I said.

He lifted his shoulders.

“If you knew the number of jerks that come in here out of the sun before we began to charge them entrance and never bought a damn thing, you’d be surprised.”

I could see his point.

I went through the turnstile, and was in time to join up with the last straggler as he moved after his party into a big room crammed with pottery of all shapes, sizes, colours and designs. The overall effect was pretty horrible.