The Human Stain

You're doin' all right. You just have to have a little tea," Swift suggested.

"Let Chet pour some tea."

"Breathe," Louie said. "That's it. Breathe, Les. If you can't make it after the soup, we'll go. But you have to make it through the first course. If you can't make it through the double-sautéed pork, that's okay. But you have to make it through the soup. Let's make a code word if you have to get out. A code word that you can give me when there's just no two ways about it. How about 'tea leaf for the code word? That's all you have to say and we're out of here. Tea leaf. If you need it, there it is. But only if you need it."

The waiter was poised at a little distance holding the tray with their five bowls of soup. Chet and Bobcat hopped right up and got the soup and brought it to the table.

Now Les just wants to say "tea leaf" and get the fuck out. Why doesn't he? I gotta get out of here. I gotta get out of here.

By repeating to himself "I gotta get out of here," he is able to put himself into a trance and, even without any appetite, to begin to eat his soup. To take down a little of the broth. "I gotta get out of here," and this blocks out the waiter and it blocks out the owner but it does not block out the two women at a wall-side table who are opening pea pods and dropping the shelled peas into a cooking pot.

Thirty feet away, and Les can pick up the scent of whatever's the brand of cheap toilet water that they've sprayed behind their four gook ears—it's as pungent to him as the smell of raw earth. With the same phenomenal lifesaving powers that enabled him to detect the unwashed odor of a soundless sniper in the black thickness of a Vietnam jungle, he smells the women and begins to lose it. No one told him there were going to be women here doing that. How long are they going to be doing that? Two young women. Gooks.

Why are they sitting there doing that? "I gotta get out of here." But he cannot move because he cannot divert his attention from the women.

"Why are those women doing that?" Les asks Louie. "Why don't they stop doing that? Do they have to keep doing that? Are they gonna keep doing that all night long? Are they gonna keep doing that over and over? Is there a reason? Can somebody tell me the reason? Make them stop doing that."

"Cool it," Louie says.

"I am cool. I just wanna know—are they gonna keep doing that?

Can anyone stop them? Is there nobody who can think of a way?'

His voice rising now, and no easier to stop that happening than to stop those women.

"Les, we're in a restaurant. In a restaurant they prepare beans."

"Peas," Les says. "Those are peas!"

"Les, you got your soup and you got your next course coming.

The next course: that's the whole world right now. That's everything.

That's it. All you got to do next is eat some double-sautéed pork, and that's it."

"I had enough soup."

"Yeah?" Bobcat says. "You're not going to eat that? You done with that?"

Besieged on all sides by the disaster to come—how long can the agony be transformed into eating?—Les manages, beneath his breath, to say "Take it."

And that's when the waiter makes his move—purportedly going for the empty plates.

"No!" roars Les, and Louie is on his feet again, and now, looking like the lion tamer in the circus—and with Les taut and ready for the waiter to attack—Louie points the waiter back with his cane.

"You stay there," Louie says to the waiter. "Stay there. We bring the empty plates to you. You don't come to us."

The women shelling the peas have stopped, and without Les's even getting up and going over and showing them how to stop.

And Henry is in on it now, that's clear. This rangy, thin, smiling Henry, a young guy in jeans and a loud shirt and running shoes who poured the water and is the owner, is staring at Les from the door. Smiling but staring. That man is a menace. He is blocking the exit. Henry has got to go.

"Everything's okay," Louie calls to Henry. "Very good food. Wonderful food. That's why we come back." To the waiter he then says, "Just follow my lead," and then he lowers his cane and sits back down. Chet and Bobcat gather up the empty plates and go over and pile them on the waiter's tray.

"Anybody else?" Louie asks. "Anybody else got a story about his first time?"

"Uh-uh," says Chet while Bobcat sets himself the pleasant task of polishing off Les's soup.

This time, as soon as the waiter comes out of the kitchen carrying the rest of their order, Chet and Bobcat get right up and go over to the dumb fucking gook before he can even begin to forget and start approaching the table again.

And now it's out there. The food. The agony that is the food.

Shrimp beef lo mein. Moo goo gai pan. Beef with peppers. Doublesautéed pork. Ribs. Rice. The agony of the rice. The agony of the steam. The agony of the smells. Everything out there is supposed to save him from death. Link him backward to Les the boy. That is the recurring dream: the unbroken boy on the farm.

"Looks good!"

"Tastes better!"