The Star Virus

"Shone," he said quietly, "sorry to see you die like this."

Shone grinned painfully. "Don't offer me any hope, will you?"

"I'm sorry," Rodrone told him, but there it is. "You're going to die."

Captain Shone struggled as if to raise his head, then lay back, resigned. He seemed to be looking a long way off.

"I know. But I don't care… Listen, I've seen everything I want to see. I've seen worlds you've never even heard of. Once we went into deep space outside Thiswhirl, right up to the Barrier. From there you can see the whole galaxy in one sweep, with Andromeda on the other side. What a sight! The whole galaxy in one sweep!"

He had seemed to speak without too much effort, but it must have been for show. His head dropped suddenly to one side.

Rodrone stood up and looked at Sana, seeing the lissome allure of her body. He realized that it was a long time since he had looked at a woman in that way. But he had stayed off DPKL-59 for over a year now.

"You had better come with me, Sana." He moved to touch her.

She merely pulled back her head with a willowy, graceful movement and stroked her hair wistfully into place over her shoulders. "No. I live here now."

"But you were his prisoner, his slave. Now he's dead."

"I live here, now."

Turning, Sana stepped through a doorway, down a step and into a set of low-ceilinged, elegant compartments. "He made me over for his pleasure," she said, half to herself.

Rodrone was not sure she was even aware he had followed. Determined, he came up behind her, stroked her neck, then seized her and swung her around to lay her down on a couch.

As she went unresistingly down, her gown fell partly away to reveal a perfect, shapely body. Desire rose in him. But as he was about to sink down on her, he noticed the look on her face. It was absent-minded, gone, yielding only by default.

Despite his urges, he could not continue. It would have been rape with consent, but rape nevertheless.

"You must come with me," he repeated, thinking that perhaps he could do something for her. But for answer she only sighed.

He started to argue with her, but suddenly he hadn't the heart. He took one long last look at her slight form. He didn't know if she realized he was watching her, but if so, she was completely unpretentious about it. His eyes lingering, he slipped through the door. As he left, she began to sing, as she had been wont to do for the Streall philosopher. Her slow, sad song curled like an eddying vapor through the silent, heavy chambers. It was like something eternal, finding a melancholy repose, hopelessly, as if it would last forever.

She had stirred desire in his blood, reminding him that he had a wife on Sunder. He had been a long time without a woman.

He called the ship and summoned help to collect the lens. When he returned he made bare explanations and walked past the crewmen, climbing silently into the control gallery to brood.

Jermy found him there ten minutes later in a deep revery. "What now?" he interrupted rudely. Rodrone looked up. "What?"

"The captain didn't come back. He was our Daddy, now he's dead. You're our Daddy now. The men want to know where we head for."

You're our Daddy now… Rodrone echoed to himself, wondering at the bizarre words. But it was completely understandable. The deadliners needed someone like Shone, or himself, who was a little more alive than they were, less neurotic and with qualities of leadership. Gael Shone was, in many ways, like a father to them, albeit as unnatural as they were.

"Sunder," Rodrone told him, coming to life and searching the desk for charts. "I'm going to see my wife."

Half an hour later he gave the order to head into intersystem space.

The Stator moved swiftly towards rendezvous with the squadron while Rodrone, aided by Feeldonet, calculated a course to Land. He looked forward to meeting his wife now.

As their trajectories crossed, Kulthol's face came up on the screen. "I see you've changed ships," he said curtly. "A pity you had to lose the Stond. Well, are you coming over to join us?"

"No, I'll stay here."

"What, with that bunch of—" Kulthol broke off. He had already heard something about who crewed the Stator. "Forgive me, but you might do better to cross over to the Revealer."

Kulthol was talking sound sense, but sense was not something that had played too large a part in guiding Rodrone's actions lately. "Maybe, but I'm staying here. Formate the squadron and make for the coordinates I gave you."

Without waiting for a reply he cut the connection. Luckily he could count on Kulthol to remain loyal despite any churlishness on his part.

Perhaps, he reflected, his real reason for staying with the deadliners was that he did not want to stand face to face with Kulthol and have to tell him how Clave died.