“I might … I haven’t really decided yet. I just don’t want a reenactment of
“Okay, Papa, cancel the NetJets membership,” Peik Wing wisecracked.
Everyone at the table laughed.
“Nick’s been calling every day, you know,” Peik Lin said. “I’m sure he has.”
“It’s been pretty pathetic,” P.T. reported. “It was four times a day when you first got here, but he tapered off to once a day. He drove up here twice, hoping we might let him come in, but the guards told him he had to move along.”
Rachel’s heart sank. She could imagine how Nick was feeling, but at the same time, she didn’t know how to face him. He had suddenly become a reminder of everything that had gone wrong in her life.
“You should see him,” Wye Mun said gently.
“I disagree, Papa,” Peik Wing’s wife, Sheryl, piped in. “If I were Rachel, I would never want to see Nick or anyone in that evil family again. Who do those people think they are? Trying to ruin people’s lives!”
“
“Hiyah, Sheryl, they’re too young to know what it means!” Neena assured her daughter-in-law.
“What does that mean?” Rachel asked.
“Rotten cunt,” P.T. whispered with relish.
“No, no,
Recovering herself, Rachel sighed. “I guess I ought to see him.”
Two hours later Rachel and Nick were seated at an umbrella-shaded table by the swimming pool of Villa d’Oro, the sound of trickling gilded fountains punctuating the silence. Rachel gazed at the water ripples reflecting off the gold-and-blue mosaic tiles. She couldn’t bring herself to look at Nick. Strangely, what had been the most beautiful face in the world to her had become too painful to look at. She found herself suddenly mute, not quite knowing how to begin.
Nick swallowed nervously. “I don’t even know how to begin to ask for your forgiveness.”
“There’s nothing to forgive. You weren’t responsible for this.”
“But I am. I’ve had a lot of time to think about it. I put you in one horrendous situation after another. I’m so sorry, Rachel. I’ve been recklessly ignorant about my own family—I had no idea how crazy my mum would get. And I always thought my grandmother wanted me to be happy.”
Rachel stared at the sweaty glass of iced tea in front of her, not saying anything.
“I’m so relieved to see that you’re okay. I’ve been so worried,” Nick said.
“I’ve been well taken care of by the Gohs,” Rachel said simply.
“Yes, I met Peik Lin’s parents earlier. They’re lovely. Neena Goh demanded that I come to dinner. Not tonight, of course, but …”
Rachel gave the barest hint of a smile. “The woman is a feeder, and you look like you’ve lost some weight.” Actually, he looked terrible. She had never seen him like this—he looked like he had slept in his clothes, and his hair had lost its floppy sheen.
“I haven’t been eating much.”
“Your old cook at Tyersall Park hasn’t been preparing all your favorite dishes?” Rachel said a little sarcastically. She knew her pent-up anger was misdirected at Nick, but in the moment she couldn’t help herself. She realized he was as much a victim of circumstances as she was, but she wasn’t able to look past her own pain just yet.
“Actually, I’m not staying at Tyersall Park,” Nick said.
“Oh?”
“I haven’t wanted to see anyone since that night in Cameron Highlands, Rachel.”
“Are you back at the Kingsford Hotel?”
“Colin’s let me crash at his house in Sentosa Cove while he’s away on his honeymoon. He and Araminta have been very worried about you too, you know.”
“How nice of them,” she said flatly, staring out across the pool at the replica of
Nick reached out and placed his hand over Rachel’s. “Let’s go back to New York. Let’s go home.”
“I’ve been thinking … I need to go to China. I want to meet my father.”
Nick paused. “Are you sure you’re ready for that?”
“Is anyone ever ready to meet the father they never knew, who’s in a prison?”
Nick sighed. “Well, when do we leave?”
“Actually, Peik Lin is coming with me.”