I Know What I Saw

Just then I see the door to the main house, 42, open, and my heart falters. This is it. A middle-aged woman appears in the doorway, steps out and turns back to lock the door. I watch as she picks her way carefully down the stone steps. Before she has managed the last step, I have crossed the street and reached her. She looks up at me as I near, her face fielding a half-smile. She is used to a world that treats her with care and kindness and she isn’t afraid of me. Because nothing in her life was ever allowed to frighten her.

‘Excuse me,’ I say. I am instinctively self-conscious but her smile reassures me as she takes me in. I am in Seb’s clothes and I am neat enough to slot into her reference so that she knows me by archetype.

‘Yes?’ she says to me, her pale eyes are those of a husky. She is older than I had thought, perhaps seventy rather than fifty.

‘I’m sorry to trouble you …’ I say. The words are forming before I have even evaluated them. I don’t know how the sentence is going to end.

‘Yes?’ I notice that she tenses her glossy cream handbag closer in to herself. I have made her anxious now.

‘I’m here to meet a friend of mine from 42B, only I can’t seem to get an answer at the door.’

‘Oh, you mean Mr Ebadi?’ she says, her voice glass.

‘Erm, yes,’ I say. ‘That’s the chap. You wouldn’t happen to know where he is?’

She looks at me blankly.

‘At his girlfriend’s perhaps?’ I offer.

‘Oh,’ she says then, frowning. ‘I wasn’t aware he had a girlfriend.’

‘Ah,’ I say, my heart dropping but my mind racing forwards.

‘And you say you’ve tried his bell?’ she says, cocking her head.

I nod in assent.

‘Well, you see it can be a bit what I would call sticky. There is a trick to it. If one sort of wiggles the button. Come on, I will show it to you. We used to own that flat too, you see.’

At this I panic. I cannot have her ring the bell but at the same time I can’t think of a way to stop her.

‘There must be a loose connection,’ she says as she bustles over to 42B. My heart beats as I scramble about trying to think of a way out of this. It feels like a ludicrously small thing to panic over but I can’t have her ring that bell. Her hand quivers over the button and just as she is about to press it, I take her wrist.

She turns to me in alarm.

‘Sorry!’ I say, my voice softening in a way that I hope reassures her. ‘I just. You see the thing is I don’t really know the chap. The truth is, I’m an FI,’ I say, scraping at memories from my banking days.

‘An FI?’

‘Oh. Financial Investigator. I’m just conducting some routine due diligence. It’s a tax thing. Look do you mind, Mrs—?’

‘Wilbert,’ she says clearly.

‘Mrs Wilbert. Would you mind if I were to ask you a couple of questions?’

‘Oh,’ she says, frowning. ‘Only’ – she inclines her head conspiratorially – ‘the police were here just yesterday.’

I feign surprise. ‘Really? What about?’

‘I’m not sure,’ she says, walking back towards the pavement. ‘I only caught a glimpse of them as they were leaving. None of those flashing lights or what have you. I didn’t think anything of it.’

I walk in step with her as she goes back in the direction I came from.

‘Mrs Wilbert, is Mr Ebadi in the habit of entertaining late-night guests?’ I say, twisting my language around her upper-class settings.

‘Oh,’ she says, stopping. ‘Let me see. I don’t sleep so well these days. You know they always told me that I’d go deaf with age but it hasn’t happened yet, unfortunately. And these walls let in all the sound, you see, from down below. Yes, I think it was Tuesday night. I heard a lot of banging about. And definitely voices.’

My heart skips at this. ‘Did you hear a woman’s voice?’

She stops mid-step and looks in the air as if searching in it for something.

‘I couldn’t say, my dear, to be perfectly honest. There’s always noise coming from there. If it’s not a party it’s the television set.’

‘What about the next day? Did you see him then, Ebadi?’

‘No, I don’t think so. I’ve tried to get the environmental people on to it but they don’t seem to be interested enough to do anything about it.’

‘Okay,’ I say, disappointed a little. She doesn’t catch my eye but is still groping around in the air for something more.

‘Wait. Now you say it, I think I did notice something in the morning. It was very early, mind you, around six or so. I heard some voices outside, and a van. That was what woke me, you see. So I looked out of the window, but it was just some men moving some belongings out of the flat. People have no consideration for others. Fancy. Six in the morning!’

I can’t pull my eyes off her as I digest what I have just heard. He came back. With help.

He must have had her body moved. That’s why the police didn’t find anything.

‘Did you see him?’ I say.

‘I don’t think I did. Just the removal men. I don’t believe that he’s the kind to get his hands dirty. Young men don’t these days, I find. Now my husband, he used happily to—’

Before she can finish the sentence, I have thanked her and run off down the road with this news expanding in my head.