Suddenly Marilyn’s tone was sharp. “Of course he had! Damn it, wouldn’t you?”
I didn’t say anything. I was used to this by now.
“Those aliens,” Marilyn said, closing her eyes. “Those goddamned aliens.”
Demand-Rebound Equilibrium:
By the time we returned to Ethans office, he’d been cut down and laid out on the floor, a sheet the coroner had brought covering his face and body. Marilyn had cried continuously as we’d made our way across the campus. It was early January, but global warming meant that the snowfalls I’d known as a boy didn’t occur much in Toronto anymore. Most of the ozone was gone, too, letting ultraviolet pound down. We weren’t even shielded against our own sun; how could we expect to be protected from stuff coming from the stars ?
I knelt down and pulled back the sheet. Now that the noose was gone, we could see the severe bruising where Ethan’s neck had snapped. Marilyn made a sharp intake of breath, brought her hand to her mouth, closed her eyes tightly, and looked away.
“Is that your husband?” I asked, feeling like an ass for even having to pose the question.
She managed a small, almost imperceptible nod.
It was now well into the evening. I could come back tomorrow to ask Ethan McCharles’s colleagues the questions I needed answered for my report, but, well, Marilyn was right here, and, even though her field was literature rather than physics, she must have some sense of what her husband had been working on. I repositioned the sheet over his dead face and stood up. “Can you tell me what Ethan’s specialty was ?”
Marilyn was clearly struggling to keep her composure. Her lower lip was trembling, and I could see by the rising and falling of her blouse—so sharply contrasting with the absolutely still sheet—that she was breathing rapidly. “His—he … Oh, my poor, poor Ethan …”
“Professor Maslankowski,” I said gently. “Your husband’s specialty …?”
She nodded, acknowledging that she’d heard me, but still unable to focus on answering the question. I let her take her time, and, at last, as if they were curse words, she spat out, “Loop quantum gravity.”
“Which is?”
“Which is a model of how subatomic particles are composed.” She shook her head. “Ethan spent his whole career trying to prove LQG was correct, and …”
“And?” I said gently.
“And yesterday they revealed the true nature of the fundamental structure of matter.”
“And this—what was it?—this ‘loop quantum gravity’ wasn’t right?”
Marilyn let out a heavy sigh. “Not even close. Not even in the ballpark.” She looked down at the covered form of her dead husband, then turned her gaze back to me. “Do you know what it’s like, being an academic ?”
I actually did have some notion, but that wasn’t what she wanted to hear. I shook my head and let her talk.
Marilyn spread her arms. “You stake out your turf early on, and you spend your whole life defending it, trying to prove that your theory, or someone else’s theory you’re championing, is right. You take on all comers—in journals, at symposia, in the classroom—and if you’re lucky, in the end you’re vindicated. But if you’re unlucky …”
Her voice choked off, and tears welled in her eyes again as she looked down at the cold corpse lying on the floor.