Kinky Confessions

“That’s different,” she said with a flutter of fingers. “That’s just me and my mixed-up head. I’m Catholic. I’m supposed to be mixed-up. But you aren’t. You’re also a man. You’re supposed to sleep with every woman you can.”

“I don’t know about that. But still, this is my sister we’re talking about.”

“Have you actually slept with her?” she said all of a sudden. “Gone all the way? What was it like? More than once? How often? When? Not since you and I—?”

“Whoa, there! Slow down. I’ll tell you, but I have to do it my way.”

She practically buzzed with excitement.

“No, we haven’t slept together. Although we have a pretty long history of fooling around. Mostly blowjobs.”

“I never would’ve guessed,” Christy deadpanned. Then she grinned.

“Sorry. Keep going.”

“Yeah… um… okay. So, blowjobs. She likes them a lot. Almost as much

as you.”

“That’s what she said.”

“And I’ve returned the favor.”

“Mmm, what’s that like? Is it weird? Or really sexy? Really sexy, I hope.”

My cheeks heated. “Yeah, it is. And once…” I inhaled through my nose and let it out slowly. “Well, more than once, but I’m thinking about the last time…”

“The last time what?” Christy said impatiently. “Sorry, keep going.”

“The last time… I had a chance to fuck her.”

“Why didn’t you? What happened? You have to tell me. Please, please!”

“It was before you and I started getting serious. Leah’s birthday party.

They planned a get-together, just the four of us.”

“With Mark, right?”

“Right. And Erin kept dropping hints. But… I knew what would happen if we went into the other room.”

“Duh. Why didn’t you?”

“I’m not sure. I mean, I knew it was a setup, but…” I shrugged and didn’t have a good answer. “I guess I wasn’t sure.”

“Men,” she sighed in exasperation. “We have to do everything.”

My eyebrows shot up.

“Never mind,” she said, although I didn’t relent. “Okay, maybe I… um…

do things,” she said. “Nothing bad! But… things I want to do. And by the time you figure it out, it’s too late and we’re doing it anyway.”

“Such as?”

“Coming here.”

“Ah, true.”

“And the first time we slept together, at Gunny’s funeral.”

I raised an eyebrow.

“You were a lot more stubborn than I thought you’d be,” she added with genuine irritation. “I never thought I’d have to work so hard to get your penis in my mouth.”

I chuckled. “Was it worth it?”

“What do you think? But you changed the subject! Why didn’t you go all the way? With Erin, I mean.”

“Like I said, I’m not sure. I wish I had.” My cheeks warmed. “And…

um… I’ve thought about it a lot since then.”

Her eyes flashed with pleasure.

“Yeah,” I admitted. “I think about what it would’ve been like. It’s sort of a recurring fantasy.”

“Mmm, my favorite kind.” Her expression softened before she darted in for a kiss. “You’re cute when you aren’t sure about something.”

“Then I must be really cute now.”

“You are. And I’m sorry I interrupted. Please keep going. I promise I’ll behave.”

“I don’t know how much more there is to tell. I mean, she wanted to go into the other room, but I didn’t.”

“Why not?”

“Honestly?”

“To thine own girlfriend be true.”

I shot her a rueful look. “Sometimes I wish I’d never said that.”

“Well, you did. And now you’re stuck with it. With me too, as a matter of fact.”

“I don’t know what I did to deserve you,” I said, “but it must’ve been good.”

“You made me feel special. And loved. And… normal. I know that sounds weird, but…”

“No, I get it. Just like you make me feel normal, especially about something like this. I mean, most girls would’ve run screaming at the first whiff of incest.”

“I’m not most girls.”

“You can say that again.”

“I’m not most girls.”

“Ha! I deserved that,” I chuckled.

“You did. But you still didn’t tell me. Why didn’t you do anything?”

“Honestly? I’m not sure. We’re both consenting adults. We understand the difference between sex and love. So… where’s the harm? I mean, she’s on the pill, so we wouldn’t have to worry about getting pregnant.” I gave Christy a sharp look. “Speaking of which, you and I need to have a discussion about that before we go all the way. I want to have kids with you, but not until we’re ready.”

“No. But don’t worry, I know what I’m doing.” She saw right through my neutral expression. “I do,” she protested. “I’ll be ready when the time comes.

But don’t change the subject. We’re talking about you and Erin.”

“Right. If you say so…”

“I say so. Now, you and Erin…?”

“Yeah. So… I’m not sure. I mean, I wanted to… I wanted to fuck her.

But I was drunk, and… it wasn’t right. In my head.”

“I understand that.”

“Wow, no kidding,” I said with a flash of insight. “This is exactly the same as you and me. I didn’t realize till just now. And now I understand you better. I mean, yeah, I’ve been patient, but there’s a small part of me that thinks you’re trying to drag things out, to get me to ask you to marry me before we do anything.”

“No, nothing like that. It’ll happen before then. I’m just being silly, but I’m working on it. Only, be patient with me.”

“I will.”