Mardock Scramble

And it was toward such a person—Balot—that the counsel for the defense would use phrases such as “You reap what you sow” or “The defendant can’t be held responsible for the plaintiff ’s choices.” At the same time the DA emphasized the enormity of the suffering that Balot had been subjected to.

The grand jury craned their necks from left to right following each of these exchanges, as if they were following the volleys in a tennis match. Good? Evil? Like a rally. As if they were playing a game, climbing a flight of stairs, muttering guilty, not guilty, guilty, not guilty alternately with every step, and whichever foot they ended up on at the top of the steps would be the decider.

“So, at the beginning, why didn’t you resist?” asked the defense counsel. “If Shell really manipulated details of your status, or forcefully raped you, or trapped you in a car, there must have been some point at which you actually tried to resist him?”

While the DA was objecting, Balot thought back to her time in the institute.

Back to the time when she was told, year in and year out, by the social workers what a bad girl she was.

Some of the volunteer workers weren’t like that, of course. But some were, and they were the ones who had more clout when it came to the everyday management of the children’s lives.

And so it was that when, for example, a male volunteer would rape a child on a lower bunk bed, the child on the upper bunk could only tremble in dread and pretend to be asleep. They had fear drummed into them as a way of life, each child deep in their personal hell.

Once, a girl from the institute dropped a kitchen knife on her foot when she was on kitchen duty. Balot watched as the girl’s foot was skewered through her slipper. Balot remembered seeing the tip of the knife protruding from the sole of the girl’s foot. And, of course, the girl had dropped the knife—thrown it at her own foot, actually—on purpose, knowing that if she hadn’t then something even worse would have been lying in wait for her that night.

The girl was taken to the institute’s medical wing, but she had to return two days later. Hobbling on crutches. Three of the workers gang raped her on the night she came back.

“Why didn’t you resist?” the defense counsel asked Balot, bringing her back to reality. If Shell was deliberately trying to hurt Balot then surely there would have been some sign of resistance, no?

The DA objected. Speaking rapidly, in a loud voice.

Why hadn’t she resisted? Everyone tried to escape. Some of the children did manage to adapt to life in the institute the best they could. Those who’d worked themselves into positions of influence, of authority. But for the vast majority of the children, all they could think about was escape.

And after surviving under conditions that felt like you had a knife to your throat every minute of every day, after having every aspect of your life regulated by those in charge—food, drink, shelter, leisure time, friendships—at the end of it all they asked you why you didn’t resist. The same adults that never gave you the slightest chance to do so in the first place.

Balot’s reply to that question was no answer.

Eventually they arrived at the recess for lunch, and the DA conferred with the Doctor regarding the points where they were losing ground.

Balot and Oeufcoque ate lunch while the others talked in elaborate detail about possible strategies to ensure the case progressed from the provisional jury to indictment. She could barely eat anything, and he hardly spoke.

–I want you to understand that I’m doing this for your sake, Balot explained to Oeufcoque.

After a short pause Oeufcoque responded. “These are just procedural formalities. They’re not for my sake or for your sake. The real battle comes later.” He seemed somewhat apologetic on one level, but at the same time was deliberately keeping these feelings in check. In order to prevent himself from accidentally letting slip any words of apology, such as I’m sorry or This is inexcusable of me.

Balot gripped the crystal on her choker and squeezed hard.

“At this point I will need to disclose some shocking facts,” said the counsel for the defense. Brightly. As if he were relishing his duty—as, indeed, he was.

“This girl had sexual relations with her father. Starting from when she was even younger than she is now. Isn’t that right, Miss Rune-Balot?”

The courtroom rustled. A hesitant, low rumble.

The DA jumped up. “Objection! Irrelevant, a meaningless question.” But the court’s interest had been piqued. The jury was curious, and who was a mere senior assistant district attorney to stand in the way of a jury’s curiosity? He gritted his teeth and took a seat.

Balot stared right back at the counsel. Coldly. Coldly enough to freeze the poison solid in her heart. Slowly, calmly, she pressed the button.

–Yes.