Незакрытых дел – нет

Your letter, dated the 24/10, is still my latest source of information about you. I could not guess what are (or I hope were) the reasons of your silence. I don’t want to make any precipitated conclusions, I am only stressing the necessity of a more frequent exchange of views, considering my very complicated position.

You know, Bruria, I have decided in a certain way. This was the easiest part of the job, you will agree with me I am sure. What comes now is to rid myself of all the unnecessary burdens barring the road leading towards the realization.

It is difficult like hell to drop the great majority of my tasks in the movement, when I don’t see who will do the job, at least as well as I was trying to do. But I must drop them or otherwise my plans with chemistry will remain empty promises.

I have seen Helmut to-day. He told me that you received my letters and that you have been glad about the news. On my questions why Bruria is so silent lately, meaning the letters, he told me that you are too busy for that. I have swallowed this quietly since there is nothing Helmut can do about it. However I must confess that this can be only a secondary reason.

Is it too much to ask somebody, who is as close to me as I believe it to be, to tell me frankly if anything has changed?

«Bruria will not change her heart» – you wrote to me – «I shall not give a spark of hope if I would not be sure» – you wrote. Still, it can happen, what then? Will you keep quiet for a while and ponder about the smoothest way of conveying me the news?

You did not write to me and you must have had a reason. Suppose I would have chosen the way I proposed in my previous letters: Humanities and all that. What was to be your attitude towards our relation in a case like that? Can it be true that you would have dropped the whole affair, including writing?