One more Christmas endssoaking stripes and stars.All my Polish friendsare behind steel bars,locked like zeroes insome graph sheet of wrath:as a disciplineslavery beats math.Nations learn the ruleslike a naughty boyas the tyrant droolsmanacles in joy.One pen stroke apiece,minus edits plushelping the policeto subtract a class.From a stubborn browsomething scarlet dropson the Christmas snow.As it turns, the globe’sface gets uglier,pores becoming cells,while the planets glarecoldly, like ourselves.Hungry faces. Grime.Squalor. Unabashedcourts distribute timeto the people crushednot so much by tanksor by submachineguns as by the bankswe deposit in.Deeper than the depthof your thoughts or mineis the sleep of deathin the Vujek mine;higher than your rentis that hand whose craftkeeps the others bent —as though photographed.Powerless is speech.Still, it bests a tearin attempts to reach,crossing the frontier,for the heavy heartsof my Polish friends.One more trial starts.One more Christmas ends.1980
CAFÉ TRIESTE: SAN FRANCISCO
To L. G.
To this corner of Grant and VallejoI’ve returned like an echoto the lips that preferredthen a kiss to a word.Nothing has changed here. Neitherthe furniture nor the weather.Things, in one’s absence, gainpermanence, stain by stain.Cold, through the large steamed windowsI watch the gesturing weirdos,the bloated breams that warmup their aquarium.Evolving backward, a riverbecomes a tear, the realbecomes memory whichcan, like fingertips, pinchjust the tail of a lizardvanishing in the desertwhich was eager to fixa traveler with a sphinx.Your golden mane! Your riddle!The lilac skirt, the brittleankles! The perfect earrendering «read» as «dear».Under what cloud’s pallornow throbs the tricolorof your future, your pastand present, swaying the mast?Upon what linen watersdo you drift bravely towardnew shores, clutching your beadsto meet the savage needs?Still, if sins are forgiven,that is, if souls break evenwith flesh elsewhere, this joint,too, must be enjoyedas afterlife’s sweet parlorwhere, in the clouded squalor,saints and the ain’ts take five,where I was first to arrive.1980