The Early Ayn Rand

"Now listen to me," said Roark. "I'm not going to do any designing. No, not any. No details. No Louis XV skyscrapers. Just keep me off aesthetics if you want to keep me at all. I have nothing to learn about design at Francon & Heyer's. Put me in the engineering department. Send me on inspections. I want to get out in the field. That's all I can learn at your place. Now, do you still want me?"

"Oh, sure, Howard, sure, anything you say. You'll like the place, just wait and see. You'll like Francon. He's one of Cameron's men himself."

"He shouldn't boast about it."

"Well... that is..."

"No. Don't worry. I won't say it to his face. I won't say anything to anyone. I won't embarrass you. I won't preach any modernism. I won't say what I think of the work I'll see there. I'll behave. Is that what you wanted to know?"

"Oh, no, Howard, I know I can trust your good judgment, really, I wasn't worried, I wasn't even thinking of it."

"Well, it's all settled then? Goodnight See you Monday."

"Well, yes... that is... I... I'm in no special hurry to go, really I came to see you and...”

"What's the matter, Peter? Something bothering you?"

"Why, no... I..."

"You want to know why I'm doing it?" Roark looked at him and smiled, without resentment or interest. "Is that it? I'll tell you, if you want to know. I don't give a damn where I work next. There's no architect in town that I'd cross the street to work for. And since I have to work somewhere, it might as well be your Francon — if I can get what I want from you. Don't worry. I'm selling myself, and I'll play the game that way — for the time being."

"Really, Howard, you don't have to look at it like that. There's no limit to how far you can go with us, once you get used to it. You'll see, for a change, what a real office looks like. After Cameron's, you'll find such a scope for your talent that..."

"We'll shut up about that, won't we, Peter?"

"Oh... I... I didn't mean to... I didn't mean anything." And he kept still. He did not quite know what to say nor what he should feel. It was a victory, but it was hollow

somehow. Still, it was a victory and he felt that he wanted to feel affection for Roark.

Keating smiled warmly, cheerily, and he saw Vesta smiling in answer, in approval and understanding; but Roark would not smile; Roark looked at him steadily, his gray eyes at their most exasperating, without expression, without hint of thought or feeling.

"Gee, Howard," Keating tried with resolute brightness, "it will be wonderful to have you with us. Just like in the old days. Just like..." It petered out; he had nothing to say.

"It's wonderful of you to be doing this, Mr. Keating," said Vesta. She was not looking at Roark.

"Oh, not at all, Miss Dunning, not at all." It was like a shot in the arm to Keating, and the sudden, supple lift of his head was his own again, his usual own, in the manner with which he moved everywhere else. He loved Roark in that moment. "Say, Howard, how about our going out for a little drink somewhere, Miss Dunning and you and I, just sort of to celebrate the occasion?"

"Swell," said Vesta. "I'd love to."

"Sorry, Peter," said Roark. "That isn't part of the job."

"Well, as you wish," said Keating, rising. "See you Monday, Howard." He looked at Roark, and his eyes narrowed, and he smiled, too pleasantly. "Nine o'clock, Howard. Do be on time. That's one thing we insist upon. We've had a time clock installed for the draftsmen — my idea — you won't mind, of course?" He swung his overcoat closed, with a swift, sweeping gesture he had learned from Francon, a gesture that seemed to display the luster of the cloth and the cost of it and everything that the cost implied. He stood buttoning it casually, with straight fingertips, not looking down at his hands. "I shall be responsible for you, Howard. You'll be under me personally, by the way. Goodnight, Howard."

He left. Roark lit a cigarette and sat down, one foot on the windowsill, his knee bent, his head thrown back. Vesta looked at the curve of his neck, at the smoke rising in a straight, even streak with his even breathing. She knew that he had forgotten her presence.

"Why did you have to act like that?" she snapped.

"Huh?" he asked, his eyes closed.

"Why did you have to insult Mr. Keating?"

"Oh? Did I?"

"It was darn decent of him. And he tried so hard to be friendly. I thought he's such a nice person. Why did you have to go out of your way to be nasty? Can't you ever be human? After all, he was doing you a favor. And you accepted it. You took it and you treated him like dirt under your feet. You... Are you listening to me, Howard?"

"No."

She stood looking at him, her hands tight, grasping the cloth of her blouse at her shoulders, pulling it savagely so that she felt the collar cutting the back of her neck. She tried to think of something that would bring him to the humiliation of anger. She couldn't. She felt the anger growing within her instead, and she forced herself to say nothing until she could keep her voice from shaking.