The First Councel

By eight o’clock, to avoid the glut of Friday night little-kid sitcoms, the restaurant switches to CNN-just in time to watch the story run again. When they’re finished showing Hartson’s sound bite, the anchorwoman says, “Tomorrow’s Washington Post reports that this man, Michael Garrick, is currently being sought for questioning by authorities.” As she says my name, my ID photo flashes on-screen. It happens so fast, I barely react. All I can do is look away. When she’s done, I pick my head up and check the bar. Waitress. Bartender. Businessmen expense-accounting their salmon dinners. No one knows but me.

***

Having overstayed my welcome with the waitress, I eventually move over to the restaurant bar, where the bartender’s used to stranded commuters who just want to watch a little TV. “Do you have a lost-and-found?” I ask him. “I think I left some stuff here during my last trip.”

He pulls a cardboard Heinz ketchup box from behind the bar and plops it in front of me. Amid the keychains and lost paperbacks, I pick out a pair of sunglasses and a Miami Dolphins baseball cap. My dad would’ve taken the box.

“All set?” the bartender asks.

“It’s a start,” I say, plastering the Dolphins on my head.

By nine o’clock, I’ve seen the story run four times. By ten, it’s double that. I’m not sure why I’m still watching it, but I can’t help myself. It’s like I’m waiting for it to change-for the newscaster to come on and say, “This just in-Nora Hartson admits drug problem; Counsel’s Office is completely corrupt; Garrick innocent.” So far, it hasn’t happened.

When the neon lights of the restaurant blink off, I take the hint and limp out toward the boarding gates. My ankle’s better, but it’s still stiff. Adjusting my glasses, and with my garment bag trailing behind me, I sink into a corner seat and crane my neck to see the televisions suspended from the ceiling. Three more hours of CNN brings the total up to twenty. Each time, the words are identical. Sure, there’re some permutations-the anchorperson changes adjectives and intonations just to keep things lively-“… this man, Michael Garrick… ” “… this man, Michael Garrick… ” “… this man, Michael Garrick … ”-but the message is always the same. It’s my face up there; my life; and as long as I sit here in my own little pity party, it’s only going to get worse.

***

At two-fifteen in the morning, a delayed flight from Chicago arrives at the US Airways terminal. When the crowd clears off the plane, two security guards approach and tell me that the terminal is now closed.

“I’m sorry, but we’re going to have to ask you to leave,” the second guard says.

Trying to make sure they don’t get a good look at my face, I keep my head down and give them nothing but Dolphins logo. “I thought you were open twenty-f-”

“The gates close for security purposes. The main terminal’s open all night. If you want to wait out there, you’re welcome to.”

Refusing to look up, I take my paper-thin garment bag and leave CNN behind.

By three A.M., I’m spread out on a small bench next to the information booth, with the garment bag draped over my chest. In the past fifteen minutes, the guards have chased away two homeless men. I’m wearing a suit. They leave me alone. It’s not the best hiding spot, but it’s one of the few that’ll let me sleep. Unlike New York, the subway here closes at midnight. Besides, if the authorities are searching, they’re looking for someone trying to leave. I want to stay.

Over the next fifteen minutes, I’m having a hard time keeping my head up, but I can’t calm myself enough to actually welcome sleep. Naturally, I’m wondering about Nora and how she’s going to react, but the real truth is, I can’t stop thinking about my dad. By now, the press is already bulldozing through the rest of my life. It’s not going to take long to find him. I don’t care how independent he is, he’s not built for something like this. None of us are. Except maybe Nora.

Fading out, my mind trips back to Rock Creek Parkway. Trailing Simon. Getting caught with the money. Saying it was mine. That’s where the snowball started. Barely two weeks ago. From there, the images rush forward. Vaughn dead in the hotel room. Nora on the White House roof. Caroline’s eyes, one straight, one cockeyed. The moments blur together, and I mentally sketch how it could’ve been different. There was always a simple way out, I just… I didn’t want to take it. It wasn’t worth it. Until now.

In Washington… No. In life… there’re two separate worlds. There’s the perception of what’s important, and then there’s what actually is. It’s been too long since I realized there’s a difference.

As my eyelids sway shut, I pull the garment bag all the way up to my chin. It’s going to be a cold night, but at least I’ve made my decision. I’m sick of being stuck in a phone booth.

CHAPTER 36