Weirder Shadows Over Innsmouth

“I can see why,” David said, surprised. “Know anything about it?”

It turned out the cop did, from the name of the original builder to its current occupants. Then he seemed to realise there was probably something else he should be doing, and nodded, before starting to leave.

“Lucky place to live,” David said. He was speaking largely to himself, but the cop paused.

“Luck doesn’t have a lot to do with it,” he said, before walking away down the street.

* * *

Though he returned to the cottage late morning and spent a couple of hours in the company of his canvas, David did not make any progress. The momentum of the previous day had dissipated. He felt fine. He felt inclined to work. Yet… it wasn’t there.

Yesterday’s link in the chain was not connected to today’s. That happened sometimes. Just as it had once happened, six years ago, that a house he and his wife had wanted very much to purchase had fallen through because the chain of buyers had broken apart. One night it was all in place. By the following lunchtime it was gone. They lost the house.

Often David placed the beginning of the end of their relationship on that morning, that loss. The truth was probably that the chain of I-love-you-I-love-you-too had started to break long before. Even non-events throw shadows. Everything is contingent.

Knowing that the last thing you should do when the work isn’t happening is to stand banging your head against it—sometimes you can painfully bore your way through a blockage, but more often you end up tinkering, ruining the freedom of what you’ve done before—he went downtown for coffee.

He did not sit looking at the wall he was currently trying to portray. He knew enough about it already. What he needed was to clarify his ideas for the shadows he’d be casting upon it. Whose hidden presence did he want to evoke? None of the people he’d observed near it yesterday, that was for sure. Their gilded non-lives didn’t speak to him.

He watched the girl behind the counter inside, wondering if she would do. She was young, somewhat attractive, though carrying the extra pounds around the lower half that Californian women often seem to affect, presumably the result of some Scandinavian influence in the genes. She was very affable, dealing with locals and tourists much the same, and presumably had a real life of some kind. David found it hard to imagine what it would be.

He sat drinking another cup of the seductively complex coffee, and failed to come up with anything. He toyed with it being a couple of tourists’ shadows. A man and a woman, stopping for refreshment while driving up or down the coast. An air of tension, perhaps. Her wanting to enjoy the drive, him concerned with covering the miles to wherever they were booked for the night. Both of them, in their contradictory—and conflicting—ways, merely wanting the best for each other. Would David be able to evoke that through shadows alone?

It wasn’t difficulty that eventually made him go cold on the idea—when it comes to art, difficult is good. It was more the suspicion that no one, himself included, would give a crap when it was done. He needed something with a little more grit.

Finding grit in Carmel—now there was a challenge.

* * *

As he walked out of the alley onto the main street, he realised that in the six, nearly seven days he’d been in town, he hadn’t seen a single person who didn’t look as if they would have a perfect credit score. Also, that this was precisely what he’d been looking for. A Carmel wall, but with the imprint of someone who did not belong. That was the tension that would make the image worthwhile.

He wandered the central streets, on a mission now. After half an hour he still hadn’t seen anyone who stuck out. Everybody dressed the same, spoke the same, walked and shopped the same. It occurred to him that it would make as much sense to stay in one position and keep an eye out for someone passing, and so he did that instead, lighting a cigarette to keep him company.

“You can’t do that,” a voice said, immediately.

David turned to see a middle-aged woman smiling sternly at him. “Huh?”

“Smoking. On the streets. It’s not allowed.”

David looked around for a sign. He was used to this kind of restriction, though generally you had to be within twenty feet of an open doorway the public might use, which he currently was not. “Really?”

“Really. Town ordinance.”

She smiled again, more tightly, and strode up the street. David flicked the end off his cigarette, stowed the butt in the pack, and watched her go.

He spent the rest of the afternoon looking for grit. He walked a long way. He smoked a cigarette once in a while, careful to cup it in his hand, to hide it from passers-by. This, and the task he’d set himself, made him feel as if he was undercover.