Will You Love Me in September

Jeanne brought a new atmosphere into Enderby. She showed me what the new hairdressing was like. She herself had a beautiful head of hair and had once or twice earned a few sous by being practiced on by a hairdresser. She would laugh hilariously at the recollection. She had emerged bowed down by the weight of two or three pounds of flour and a considerable helping of pomade, looking like a lady of high fashion on the top and a poor flower seller everywhere else. But it was one way of earning a few sous, although she had a hard task getting the stuff out of her hair.

But her greatest stroke of luck was with the druggist. She had done well there and was offered the opportunity to stay, which she did. And it was thus that she had been able to save enough money to make her journey to England.

It was amusing to hear her talk of the ladies of Paris. She would prance about the room in imitation of their elegance. They drank vinegar to make them thin, while they took arsenic in the right doses to give them a delicately tinted skin. The druggist's wife had aspired to be a lady. She had her arsenic at hand for her skin and she drank a pint of vinegar every day. Her coiffure was a sight for wonder, and at night the astonishing creation was wrapped in what looked like bandages, which made the whole contraption twice its normal size. And she would go to bed supporting false flair, flour and pomade on a kind of wooden pillow in which a Place had been cut out for her neck to fit into, and which, for all e discomfort, gave the lady immense satisfaction.

Jeanne communicated her happiness to me and we would laugh and chat together for hours. Damaris was delighted to see us together. So Jeanne's coming had been a very happy event.

One day a servant from Eversleigh Court rode over to Enderby with a special message from Arabella. A visitor had called on them; he came from the Field family of Hessenfield Castle in the north of England. It appeared that the present Lord Hessenfield was eager to make the acquaintance of his niece.

It was a moment of great excitement for me. Damaris, however, was a little apprehensive.

I think she believed my father's family would try to take me away from her.

We rode over to Eversleigh at once. Arabella was waiting for us, looking rather concerned.

"This man is a sort of cousin of the present lord," she whispered to us when we arrived.

"I gather he has been sent to see us.”

My heart was beating wildly with excitement as I went into the house. Arabella laid a hand on my arm. "He may make suggestions," she went on. "We shall have to discuss whatever it is all together. Don't make any rash promises.”

I scarcely heard her. I could only think that I was going to discover more about my father's family.

He was tall, like Hessenfield; his hair was light with a touch of red in it. He had the clear-cut features which I remembered my father had had; and he had very piercing blue eyes.

"This is Clarissa," said Arabella, propelling me forward.

He came to me swiftly and took both my hands.

"Yes," he said. "I see the resemblance. You're a Field, my dear-Clarissa, isn't it?”

"Yes, that's my name. What is yours?”

"Charles Field," he answered. "My uncle, Lord Hessenfield, knows of your existence and he wants to meet you.”

"He is ... my father's brother?”

"Exactly. He says it is not right that there should be such a close relationship and that you should not have met.”

"Oh." I turned to look at Damaris.

Her face had puckered a little. I knew she was apprehensive because this man had come looking for me.

"We feel that such a state of affairs should be rectified without delay," he went on. "You must want to meet your family.”

I tried not to look at Damaris. "Oh, yes ... of course.”

"I was hoping that I could take you back with me.”

"You mean for a visit?”

"I mean just that.”

Damaris said quickly, "We should need time to get Clarissa ready for such a visit.

And the north ... it is a long way.”

"The whole length of the country, one might say-your being in the extreme south and we in the north ... right on the border.”

"Is it rather lawless country up there?”

He laughed. "No more than the rest, I trow. You can be assured that the Fields know how to take care of their own.”

"I am sure they do. But for a child... .”

I felt a faint irritation. When were they going to stop referring to me as "the child.”

It was at moments like this that I felt more intensely than ever the suffocation of this love they wrapped me in. It was like a great blanket-warm, soft and smothering.

"Aunt Damaris," I said firmly, "I should see my father's family.”

I wished I hadn't spoken, for she looked so hurt, so I went to her and took her hand.

"It would only be for a little while," I reminded her.

Arabella said briskly, "I think this needs time and thought. Perhaps in a year or so... .”

"We are all impatience to meet our kinswoman. Her father was head of the family.

It was a great shock to us when he died so suddenly ... in his prime.”

"It was such a long time ago," said Damaris.