One Bullet Away

I joined many other recon Marines at a dusk memorial service in a field on the southeastern outskirts of Baghdad. Around us, the entire First Marine Division was massing its combat power. Marines sprawled everywhere, sleeping. Others turned wrenches on Humvees, cleaned weapons, or huddled over huge map sheets with their corners held down by bricks. We hadn’t all been together since leaving Kuwait. After almost three weeks moving across Iraq like individual rivulets of water, the division was pooling, preparing to flood the enemy capital. It was a pause, not a stop. In the distance, Baghdad’s minarets rose above the palms.

We took turns saying what a great Marine Horsehead had been, what a great husband, father, and man. We bowed our heads in silence and sang a song I cannot remember. I was staring at the boots. When a man wakes up in the morning, he puts on his boots. He laces them up and ties them. He expects to take them off again that evening. Horsehead went through the day without knowing he’d put on his boots for the last time. Maybe I’d already put on my boots for the last time, too. When the service ended, I walked slowly back to the platoon, grateful for my time alone in the dark. Faint strings of tracers climbed into the sky, too far off to hear.

Colonel Ferrando summoned his officers to battalion headquarters the following afternoon, April 8, for a mission brief. We’d spent the morning listening to the BBC and watching columns of smoke rise from Baghdad. The Army had launched an audacious “thunder run” from Saddam International Airport into the heart of the city, and resistance was lighter than feared. The Marines were preparing to unleash their own offensive across the Diyala River and into the city from the southeast. The news reports had an unreal quality to them. Part of me thought we’d never reach that point. American tanks would never roll into one of the great cities of the Middle East. I had laughed in Kuwait when General Mattis talked about using recon as dismounted shock troops during the final urban assault. Hyperbole for the lance corporals, I’d thought then. Never gonna happen. Well, it was happening. I leaned closer to learn our role in the war’s climax.

“Gentlemen, as most of you know, the assault on Baghdad has begun,” Ferrando said. As he elaborated on the American seizure of Iraq’s capital, I marveled at his uniform. It looked pressed. His clean-shaven face shone in the sunlight, and his hair was neatly combed. I, in comparison, looked as if I had come to the meeting straight from my cardboard box beneath an overpass. Days of sweat and grime stiffened my uniform. My fingernails were black, and I could feel my toes squishing in my socks. I slept at night with my head out of the sleeping bag because I couldn’t bear the stench of my own body.

The colonel confirmed that the division would attack across the Diyala River into the city. General Mattis had one overriding concern. The forty-first Armored Brigade of the Al Nida Republican Guard Division was headquartered in Ba‘quba, only fifty kilometers northeast of Baghdad. Its tanks could hit the First Marine Division’s flank less than an hour after leaving their base. And that’s where we came in.

Major Whitmer read the mission statement: “At fourteen hundred Zulu, First Recon Battalion will attack north to Ba‘quba, locating and identifying enemy forces in order to help the division develop its situation. Be prepared to engage targets of opportunity. We’ll link up with LAR at the zero-zero northing and then continue up to the three-zero northing.”

While Colonel Ferrando and Major Whitmer continued the briefing, directed mainly at the company commanders, I studied my maps. The 00 northing was a line on the map about twenty-five kilometers to our north. That meant fifteen miles of unescorted driving up to the LAR company, whose call sign was War Pig. They straddled the road at the northernmost limit of the American advance, which happened to be right at the 00 northing. We would link up with them and attack north for another thirty kilometers into the town of Ba‘quba. The map showed a highway split south of town. The left fork swung around to the west and paralleled a river on the western side of Ba‘quba. The right fork continued straight north on the eastern side of the city. In the months to come, this town would be a corner of the area called “the Sunni Triangle,” with connotations of RPG-toting insurgents and blown-up American Humvees. On April 8, 2003, it was still just Ba‘quba, a small town north of Baghdad, whose Republican Guard outpost had yet to feel the brunt of American ground power. First Recon was going to change that.