Panic!

Lennox and Jana left the tank at the first fading of darkness, rested and with regathered strength, and began moving toward a long sloping rise to the north. The air was no longer cold, though still cool, and they went as swiftly as their stiffened, aching bodies would allow; they had drunk deeply of the pulp of another barrel cactus outside the tank, and the moisture would stay with them for a while, until the sun climbed into the sky and set fire to the desert again.

They had passed the long night wrapped in each other’s arms, insulated against the biting wind, against the terror which lay without. The need for words had not come to either of them, and they had slept, and when they had awakened there was still no need to put voice to what they had shared. Jana had met Lennox’s gaze when he looked at her, and smiled faintly and nodded, thanking him with her eyes, telling him that she was all right now, that she knew and accepted the truth about herself.

As they ran, Lennox found himself wondering how deeply his feelings for Jana were rooted—if he could possibly be in love with her. There was none of the wild, joyous exhilaration he had felt with Phyllis in the beginning, none of the electricity, the chemical magnetism that draws and fuses two individuals; there was only the peace she generated within him, the bond that was theirs, the tenderness that overwhelmed him each time he looked at her and touched her. Was that love? Or the beginnings of love? He didn’t know, but he wanted to know. He wanted to know her better, he wanted her to know him, he wanted them to get out of this place, this trap, so that the understanding and the perception each seemed to have of the other’s inner self could be nurtured and developed.

He gripped Jana’s hand tightly, looking over his shoulder at her, trying to smile with his cracked mouth. She returned the pressure of his fingers, touching him with her eyes, and he knew that she felt some of the same things about him—and the knowledge filled him with hope and with pleasure and with urgency.

They approached the crest of the rise, threading their way between scattered boulders and thick clumps of mesquite; the sky was bright with the building haze of heat now, and Gam-bel’s quail and an occasional jackrabbit scurried away before them, startled by their presence in a world that belonged to creatures instead of men. Finally, minutes later, they topped the rise, and Lennox stopped abruptly, staring at what lay beyond. “Oh God,” he said softly.

Flat, semi-barren land stretched away from them, void of all but transitory cover; there was a line of rocky outcroppings to the west, but they were some distance away and he and Jana would have to cross a great expanse of open ground to get to them. Naked, they would be naked ...

Jana said sharply, “Jack, look!”

“What is it?”

“Down there! Is that a road?”

Lennox followed her pointing arm with his eyes. Near the foot of the long slope falling away into the flatland was a pair of faintly discernible wheel ruts, obliterated in spots, grown over with brush in others, but ruts nonetheless, coming from around the rocks to the west, hooking eastward to parallel a wide arroyo cut deeply, like a jagged scar, into the dry, desolate plain. They would lead somewhere, they would lead to Cuenca Seco or to another road, they would lead out.

Lennox felt a surge of wild hope. He saw the same relief mirrored on Jana’s face, the sudden brightness of her eyes, and she said, “Oh, Jack, a road, a road!” and then they were running down the slope, unaware now of the rocky, treacherous soil and the gleaming cactus needles and the multiple, clutching arms of the mesquite and ocotillo, forgetting the danger of exposure on the open flat, seeing nothing but the wheel ruts, the path to safety ...

Four

The pain in the lids and sockets of Vollyer’s eyes had become excruciating, and the shadows were back at the edges of solid objects, distorting them slightly, putting them vaguely out of focus. The edge of the sun had crawled above the eastern horizon now, and the glare of daylight wavered over the landscape, contracting the pupils, intensifying the agony.

They were coming on a long rise, and he stopped to catch his breath, to rub gingerly at the swollen pits with his pocket handkerchief. Di Parma said, “You sure your eyes are okay, Harry? Jesus, they don’t look too good—”

“There’s nothing wrong with my eyes!”

“Harry, listen, we’ve got to call it off pretty soon. We can’t stay out here much longer, Harry, not without food and water. We may have gone too far as it is, it’ll take us a full day or more to get back to the car—”

“Shut up, will you shut up?”

Di Parma caught his arm. “Listen, I’m telling you, I don’t want to die on this desert!”