The Black Swan

She set the tray down on the table, and as she did so I heard a sound below ... as though someone was walking under the window.

I went over and looked out. I cried out in horror. He was there. He took off his hat and lifted his face to me, smiling that evil smile.

I cried out and Roland was at my side. Phillida had come to the other side of me. The figure below stood there, hat in hand, revealing his hair. Once again he gave that ironic bow. I watched, the familiar terror gripping me.

Roland had put an arm round me.

I cried out, “There! Down there! You’ve seen it. You’ve both seen it now ...”

Roland was shaking his head.

“Dear Lucie,” said Phillida. “There’s no one there.”

“What?” I cried. “Look! Look! How can you say ...?”

Roland drew me forcibly from the window. He took my head in his hands and held it against his chest. I wriggled free.

“I am going down there to meet him,” I said.

“Lucie... Lucie ...” Roland was talking soothingly. “There is no one there.”

“I’m going down to see. I don’t believe you didn’t see him. / saw him. You must have seen him.”

“Oh dear,” said Phillida. She was looking at Roland. “What are we going to do ... about her?”

I felt a sudden rush of anger against them. “There is something down there,” I said.

“I am going to see.”

“There is no one there.” Roland drew me to the window. The figure had disappeared.

“Who is it?” I cried.

“It’s nothing, Lucie. It’s just something you’ve got on your mind.”

“I wasn’t thinking of it then.”

“But it was on your mind,” cried Phillida. “It’s not uncommon for this sort of thing to happen. People have hallucinations. You have suffered a terrible shock.” I made an impatient gesture. I had heard all this before.

“You saw it,” I reiterated. “/ saw it clearly. You must have seen it. You were looking straight at it ... both of you.”

“There was nothing there,” repeated Phillida firmly. “If there had been we should have seen it. You must believe us, Lucie.”

I sat on the bed helplessly. Roland sat beside me, and, putting his arms round me, stroked my hair.

“I think the best thing is a good night’s sleep,” he said.

“Just the thing,” said Phillida. “Here, drink your nightcaps before they are cold.”

Obediently we did so.

“You both need a good night’s sleep,” said Phillida. “You’ll feel better when you’ve had that.” She laid a hand on my arm. “Don’t worry, Lucie. These things happen sometimes. The thing is to forget them. We’ll have all the fun and excitement of getting into the new house. That’ll take your mind off it. It’s what you need. You’ve been brooding. It isn’t unusual, you know. It happens to people after terrible shocks. Sometimes it takes quite a long time to recover. I’ll leave you now. Good night. Sleep well.” She kissed me lightly and then did the same to Roland.

“See you in the morning.”

And then she went out.

When she had gone, Roland said, “We won’t talk anymore tonight. You must get straight to bed and to sleep. Phillida’s right Sleep is what you need. You’ll feel better in the morning.”

To sleep? To rest? Phillida’s nightcap was not exactly efficacious. I lay still through the night. What did it mean? I asked myself. Why was I haunted by this vision? And both Roland and Phillida had been unable to see it. If it had been a real person they must have seen him. So he must be a ghost... the ghost of Fergus O’Neill, the man I had sent to the gallows.

I saw the dawn come and only then did I sleep.

I was awakened by the sound of wheels. I was startled. It was very late. I saw by the clock that it was ten o’clock.

Roland had gone and I guessed that Phillida had given instructions that I should not be disturbed.

I wondered who was below. I went to the window. I could never approach it without a shudder, wondering what I should see below.

It was a dog cart and Mrs. Hellman was alighting. The little girl Daisy was with her.

I heard Mrs. Hellman’s penetrating voice: “Good morning, Miss Fitzgerald. Your sister-in-law said you would like some eggs.”

Phillida, charming and gracious as ever, was standing there.

“How good of you! The eggs were delicious. We’d love some more.”

“Is young Mrs. Fitzgerald around?” asked Mrs. Hellman.

“She’s sleeping. She’s not very well.”

“Oh dear. I hope it’s nothing serious.”

“Well, we’re worried, my brother and I. Yes... very worried.”

“Oh deary me!”

“Well,” said Phillida. “She’s ... er ... a little strange.”

“Oh?”

“She sees things... visions. It’s rather frightening, but we’re hoping she’ll get better.”

I felt sick. How dared she tell this ... to a woman whom she had never met before! Mrs. Hellman had come close to Phillida. “Well, I would have said she was just a nice normal young woman ...just like everyone else.”

“It’s only at times,” said Phillida.

“A little...” Mrs. Hellman tapped her forehead.

“Would you like to come in?” asked Phillida.

“Well, that’ll be nice. Daisy, come on.”

“I’m just on my way to Bracken,” Mrs. Hellman was saying as they went in. “I just thought I’d drop the eggs in on my way.”