Вера, Надежда, неЛюбовь…

to be a non-unusual some?

So just make up your insane mind:

You want to live or you will hide?

You know you can’t hide from yourself,-

We should choose it, by ourselves!..

26.11.18; 16:00-16:30. Иллюстрация авторская: 2016 год.

The confession…

What do you feel in the word “families”?

You know, I feel the “group of enemies”…

You taste this pain within my heart,

But you don’t want to say: “Enough!”

This pain is double, it’s a fact;

Oh, I just want to be apart!

I always hope – you will support,

But you were always doing spot!..

You’ll understand that I was here,

When you can’t take me hug and hear!..

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It will be late to say: “Goodbye!” –

I will be the “catcher in the rye”!

You’ll understand you weren’t right,

But I will close my eyes at night…

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And, all the same, I really love you;

In spite the dark, I’m coming through…

Y’r rage should be a part of a dust!..

So also you should know – you must

Keep on trying to exchange things,

That your demons want to exist…

You should be someone another –

Don’t let your evil get too rather!..

I’ll give you your one last chance –

And you must feel the family sense;

You will not be a “dirty dancer”,

Cos you will know: Love – is the Answer!!!

26.11.18; 23:10-23:25. Иллюстрация авторская: 2017 год.

My madness World!

You know there’s nothing left to hide,

When you are here and on my side.

And we will keep on fighting

With enemies and with dark blinding!

We’ll survive the hurricane,

But we’ll never be the same.

Oh, I have the one last shell -

I should cure all viral cells!..

You feel the animal reflex,

That’s one of a million side-effects;

You feel that you should to protect

The defenseless, which you reject…

Oh, do you know, it’s not your fault,

That you came to the Heaven’s Vault?

So don’t remember your great fall -

And don’t regret, but just hold on!..

Within me there is the only empty,

I won’t be the one of the saintly;

All I want to do – is weep.

Do you feel, how strong my grieve?

You’ll be crying with me now, -

I will bow my head so low;

But I won’t down of my knees,

And my weakness won’t be vis…

The helpless crying is invisible;

I must be for you invincible.

Oh, you know, my world’s – my kingdom,

I will try to come back home…

I will go through the hardship, -

You won’t see my sunken ship!

Cos I’ll recreate it all:

Welcome to my Madness World!..

27.11.18; 11:30-12:00. Иллюстрация авторская: 2014 год.

Pure…

I’m alone in empty room,

And I wallow in my gloom;

So I wallow in this grime,

But you know, there is no crime…

On the Edge of Universe

We can make our Multiverse.

And I will raise from the ash;

Can you, darling, feel my rush?..

Inside me I feel the split; -

What do you think about it?

In my soul feel the abyss -

But by whom I was abused?..

You know, I woke my mister Hide,

That’s why I feel I lost my mind…

Doctor Jekyl, give me cure

To I again feel myself pure;

You can give me your great poison,

And my black soul will be frozen;

But because of all my sin, -

Do you know, I’ll never die?..

I’m – one more face in the crowd,

And I’m thinking out loud:

“Do you want to be my angel,

Cos you aren’t for me a stranger?..”

Oh, my dear, you’re so pure,

That your words for me like a cure;

You lifted me for the light -

I’m not inclined to fight!..

And I know, I wasn’t right,

When I felt the need to Hide -

Whispering to our God

to we will not be apart…

And it’s perfect, when you’re here;

When I can see you and hear;

Cos your words for me – like cure;

Cos I feel myself so pure…

02.12.18; 0:00-0:40. Иллюстрация авторская: 2015 год.

Примечания от автора: 1.Mr. Hide – специально написано с опечаткой (“ошибкой”), т.к. правильно, по Стивенсону – mr. Hyde, и для того, чтобы показать необходимость в двусмысленном понимании состояния лирического героя, поскольку глагол “hide” – с англ. «прятаться», поэтому отсюда – и производная для фамилии.

2.Также в строчке “when I felt the need to Hide” – глагол написан с большой (заглавной) буквы, чтобы снова показать (усилить) двойное значение: нужда лирического героя 1) в мистере Хайде и 2) в том, чтобы спрятаться. Выбор делает каждый для себя сам.

3.Джекил и Хайд, являясь антиподами друг другу (+буквально, раздвоение), ясно (чётко) показывают и то противостояние, этот разлад (“split”) в душе ГГ.