Teresa, My Love: An Imagined Life of the Saint of Avila

21. John of the Cross, “More Stanzas Applied to Spiritual Things on Christ and the Soul,” in Collected Works, 722.

22. Testimonies, 42, CW 1:410–11.

23. John of the Cross, “First Romance: On the Gospel. Regarding the Most Blessed Trinity,” in Collected Works, 724–25.

24. Letter 297, to Jerome Gratian, June 10, 1579, CL 2:195.

25. John of the Cross, “Romance 2,” in Collected Works, 726.

26. Testimonies, 52, CW 1:414.

27. Life, 38:9–11, CW 1:333–34.

28. Testimonies, 14, CW 1:392.

29. VII D, 2:7, CW 2:435–36.

30. John of the Cross, “Spiritual Canticle,” in Collected Works, 712. With regard to John of the Cross and Teresa of Avila, see the work of Fr. Michel de Goedt: Le Christ de Thérèse de Jésus (Paris: Desclée-Fleurus, 1993), 169–82; and Le Christ de Jean de la Croix, (Paris: Desclée, 1993).

31. Testimonies, 52, CW 1:414.

32. Ibid.

33. Testimonies, 49, CW 1:413.

34. Thomas Aquinas, “Quidquid recipitur ad modum recipientis recipitur,” Summa Theologiae 1a, q. 75, a. 5; 3a, q. 5.

35. John of the Cross, Dark Night of the Soul, book i:4.

36. Testimonies, 31, CW 1:402.

37. Colette, Mes apprentissages, in Œuvres (Paris: Gallimard, 1991), 3:1039: “la règle qui guérit de tout.”

38. John of the Cross, “The Dark Night,” in Collected Works, 712.

39. Marcelle Auclair, La vie de sainte Thérèse d’Avila (Paris: Seuil, 1950), 188.

40. John of the Cross, “A Gloss,” in Collected Works, 736: “Like a fevered man’s / Who loathes any food he sees.”

41. John of the Cross, Ascent of Mount Carmel, book 1, chapter 13, 58.

42. “Naked faith”: John of the Cross, ibid., book 1, chapter 2: “Luego entra el alma en la segunda Noche, quedándose sola en desnuda fe.” The English version drops the adjective: “The soul at once enters into the second night, and abides alone in faith.” (John of the Cross, Ascent of Mount Carmel, book 1, chapter 2, 20).

43. Edith Stein, The Science of the Cross, in Collected Works, 6:228: “The actual reality…”

44. Testimonies, 65 (Spanish Relaciones, 6): 9, CW 1:438.

45. Song of Solomon 1:4.

46. Testimonies, 65 (Spanish 6): 9, CW 1:438: “This surrender to the will of God is so powerful that the soul wants neither death nor life, unless for a short time when it longs to die to see God.”

47. Ibid.: “And if through my intercession I could play a part in getting a soul to love and praise God more, even if it be just for a short time, I think that would matter to me more than being in glory.”

48. Song of Sol. 1:3; 1:2.

49. Medit., Prologue, CW 2:215.

50. John of the Cross, Ascent of Mount Carmel, book 2, chapter 12, 103–4.

51. Michel de Montaigne, The Essays: A Selection, trans. and ed. M. A. Screech (London: Penguin, 2004), book 2:1, 131.

52. James Joyce, Ulysses (London: Penguin, 2000), 933.

53. Critique, “On Father Fray John of the Cross’s Reply,” CW 3:361.

54. Letter 260, to Jerome Gratian, August 1578, CL 2:107.

55. VI D, 9:17, CW 2:4.

56. John of the Cross, Ascent of Mount Carmel, book 1, chapter 3, 21.

57. VII D, 4:9, CW 2:447.

58. Life, 38:17, CW 1:336.

59. Testimonies, 53:3, CW 1:416.

60. Marcel Proust, Jean Santeuil, trans. Gerard Hopkins (New York: Simon & Schuster, 1956), 1:409.

61. Marcel Proust, “Time Regained,” in In Search of Lost Time, trans. and with an introduction and notes by Peter Collier, ed. Christopher Prendergast (London: Penguin, 2002), 141.

62. Ignatius Loyola, Spiritual Exercises, 2: “Porque no el mucho saber harta y satisface al ánima, mas el sentir y gustar de las cosas internamente.” See also the final prayer of the person doing the retreat, called “Application of the Senses,” in Victoriano Larrañaga, Sainte Thérèse d’Avila, Saint Ignace de Loyola: Convergences (Paris: Pierre Téqui Éditeur, 1998), 121.

63. John of the Cross, Ascent of Mount Carmel, Book 2, chapters 28:2 and 31:1 (regarding the sensorial conversion of the word/call), 195, 205: “Substantial words are others which also come to the spirit formally…these cause in the substance of the soul that substance and virtue which they signify.…It is as if Our Lord were to say formally to the soul: ‘Be thou good’; it would then substantially be good.…Or as if it feared greatly and He said to it: ‘Fear thou not’; it would at once feel within itself great fortitude and tranquility.”