Teresa, My Love: An Imagined Life of the Saint of Avila

7. For the testimonies gathered as evidence for the beatification and canonization of St. Teresa, see Gillian Alghren, Teresa of Avila and the Politics of Sanctity (Ithaca: Cornell University Press, 1998), 154 et seq.

8. Way, 7:8, CW 2:70: “I would not want you to be like women.”

9. Way, 38:8, CW 2:181 (paraphrased): “And so as to reign more sublimely it understands that the above-mentioned way [suffering] is the true way.”

10. For the cucumber anecdote, see Marcelle Auclair, La vie de sainte Thérèse d’Avila (Paris: Seuil, 1950), 140.

11. Letter 92, to Jerome Gratian, October 1575, CL 1:233.

12. Ibid., 234.

13. Letter 248, to Mother María de San José, June 4, 1578, CL 2:80.

14. Found., 7:4, CW 3:135–36. The original passage in its entirety runs as follows: “Si no bastaren palabras, sean castigos; si no bastaren pequeños, sean grandes; si no bastare un mes de tenerlas encarceladas, sean cuatro: que no pueden hacer mayor bien a sus almas. Porque, como queda dicho y lo torno a decir (porque importa para las mismas entenderlo, aunque alguna vez, o veces, no puedan más consigo), como no es locura confirmada de suerte que disculpe para la culpa, aunque algunas veces lo sea, no es siempre, y queda el alma en mucho peligro; sino estando — como digo — la razón tan quitada que la haga fuerza, hace lo que, cuando no podía más, hacía o decía. Gran misericordia es de Dios a los que da este mal, sujetarse a quien los gobierne, porque aquí está todo su bien, por este peligro que he dicho. Y, por amor de Dios, si alguna leyere esto, mire que le importa por ventura la salvación.”

15. Way, 19:4, CW 2:108.

16. Const., 24, CW 3:327.

17. Const., 26, CW 3:327.

18. Const., 44, CW 3:448.

19. Way, 19:9, CW 2:111.

20. Way, 19: 9–11, CW 2:111–12.

21. Const., 44, CW 3:448.

22. Letter 161, to Mariano de San Benito, December 12, 1576, CL 1:430–31.

23. Testimonies, 53:1, CW 1:415.

24. Testimonies, 54, CW 1:416.

25. Letter 108, to Jerome Gratian, June 15, 1576, CL 1:280.

26. Life, 21:11, CW 1:190.

27. Way, 15:1, CW 2:91.

28. Letter 182, to Lorenzo de Cepeda, February 10, 1577, CL 1:494.

29. Life, 13:4, CW 1:124.

30. Life, 13:7, CW 1:126.

31. Life, 13:5, CW 1:125.

32. Way, 39:3, CW 2:190.

33. Found., 28:21–34, CW 3:258–63.

34. Testimonies, 19, CW 1:394.

35. Testimonies, 17, CW 1:394.

36. Life, 22:15, CW 1:199.

37. Life, 22:16, CW 1:199.

38. Life, 22:10, CW 1:195.

29. “WITH THE EARS OF THE SOUL”

1. See Julia Kristeva, “The Semiotic and the Symbolic,” in Revolution in Poetic Language, trans. Margaret Waller (New York: Columbia University Press, 1984), 19–106.

2. Testimonies, 58, CW 1:423.

3. Sigmund Freud, Totem and Taboo, trans. James Strachey (London: Routledge and Kegan Paul, 1999), 153.

4. VI D, 2:6, CW 2:369.

5. VI D, 2:7, CW 2:369.

6. VI D, 3:12, CW 2:375.

7. Life, 20:12–14, CW 1:177–78.

8. Melanie Klein, Collected Writings of Melanie Klein, vol. 1, Love, Guilt and Reparation: And Other Works 1921–1945 (London: Hogarth, 1975); Julia Kristeva, The Female Genius, II: Melanie Klein, trans. Ross Guberman (New York: Columbia University Press, 2004).

9. Life, 20:16. English version, CW 1:179: “In this pain the soul is purified and fashioned or purged like gold in the crucible so that the enameled gifts might be placed there in a better way, and in this prayer it is purged of what otherwise it would have to be purged of in purgatory.”

10. Life, 20:18, CW 1:180.

11. VI D, 9:4, CW 2:412.

12. VI D, 3:5, CW 2:372.

13. VI D, 3:7, CW 2:373.

14. VI D, 9:5–7, CW 2:412.

15. Testimonies, 52, CW 1:414–15.

16. Way, 11:2, CW 2:80.

17. Way, 11:3, CW 2:80.

18. Way, 11:4, CW 2:81.

19. Life, 7:11, CW 1:88.

20. Life, 7:10, CW 1:87. For Teresa’s encouragement of her father’s faith and growing closeness to him at the end of his life, see Life, 7:10–16.

21. Life, 22:3, CW 1:192.

22. Life, 22:6, 8, CW 1:193–95.

23. Way, 19:2, 4, CW 2:107, 108.

24. VI D, 3:5, CW 2:372.

25. VI D, 3:6, CW 2:373.

26. Testimonies, 51, CW 1:414.

27. Denis Diderot, Elements of Physiology, from “Notes for Elements of Physiology, probably in preparation for a larger work on the nature of man,” quoted in Jim Herrick, Against the Faith (New York: Prometheus, 1985), 84. (Passage from the “Conclusion” not included in Diderot, Interpreter of Nature: Selected Writings, ed. J. Kemp [New York: Lawrence and Wishart, 1963], the only place that seems to contain the Elements in English.)

28. Way, 31:9, CW 2:157.

29. Way, 24:4, CW 2:129.

30. Life, 14:5, CW 1:135.

31. VII D, 2:7, CW 2:435–36.

32. VII D, 2:9–10, CW 2:436–37. (Translation modified.)