Feeling the universe’s cold hand
On his shoulder, and the sky
Distends like a toad’s gland
He’s run away – from his father’s military gait
From his mother’s silken tights
And he’s squared his chest to seem older
But today didn’t go right.
How he aches to be cultured, a sportsman
More bronzed, more related to glass.
Listen to the urns’ courtship
And the trees’ hollows gasp:
You want this park to like you,
You, and those plump little brides,
But can you be sure your betrothed
Is no frog, and doesn’t eat flies –
Or that the bulge of her goitre
In an unnatural blue
Is just a dome of sounds and lines
For the sky to breathe through?
Pop! Despair. The balloon disappears
Scraps of rubber fall and lie
Where a widow, crouched in the grass,
Shares a quiet cigarette with the boy.
*
Running, running
On our last legs
Across the prone empire
Along the longest drags
The tundra is never-ending
The dogs bark never-ending
The watchman is stood unbending
(though his job is dead-ending)
The curses are never-ending
The journey is never-ending
The heavenly valleys sounding
With machine gun fire resounding
From where the firmament is bending
And the body feels its own ending
But it’s like it’s been ground to chaff
And tastes in the throat like a laugh
Tickling and distending –
A kind of happy ending
And running, running to ground
Seems a lot like lying down.
*
By the church’s black fence
I sit with a crooked smile
On a standard issue bench
At Shrovetide
Heavenly birds are sitting
On my puffy knees
Bright-eyed, hopping and shitting
Such gentle scolds
Why am I holding
A box of metal and glass?
Why, for you to cast in coins
Whenever you pass.
In the church, nannies with babies
Inhale the heavy psalms
They emerge soft, like after the bathhouse,
And willingly give me alms
For my red brick body
Tight coil of my life
I’d be in the earth by now
If I hadn’t wanted to die.
But the doves rise with a crack
Their wings clatter, unfold.
Like a bush sprang from my back
Doves sprout on my shoulders.
And to the passing glance
I am both clothed and stripped bare
I am my own tomb and fence
My own mother, my own wife dear.
Kireevsky
1
The light swells and pulses at the garden gate
Rolls itself up, rolls itself out
Smetana, the very best –
Sweet lady, unlatching a casement –
O black-throated Smetana, flame up
O white-winged Smetana, flare high
I’m no Lenten gruel, no scourge of sultanas
No faceless soup of curds for convicts
Don’t you dare compare my cream of ermine!
Are you pleased with a simple-minded cheese?
As the land rises and falls in hills and valleys
I’m shaped in living lipids and calories
Congealed unconcealed made gloriously manifest
Turned from one side to another and back again
Who will take up a silver spoon to muddy
My lilac-hued body?
And you, my light, barely at the threshold
Little fool, my light, never where I need you
You effulgent, I gently melting
I gently melting, I slightly smelling
And down there, where life rustles in the undergrowth
A tiny frog sits and croaks
Swells and croaks. Croaks and swells
And lifts its front legs to protect itself.
2
In the village, in the field, in the forest
A coach rattled past, a carriage
A smart little trap with a hood like a wing
From the big city they came, from Kazan,
At the turning of the year, with caskets and coffers
To carry out an inspection, a census:
Oh the forest is full of souls, and the water’s flow,
Many souls in the hamlet, and in the oak tree, too
And day wanders the wood, walking into the wind
All its own self long, on the spoor of the hind.
And the circles of dancers – still traces in the ground
The lips of hired weepers – not yet shrivelled
And all of it, even the young Cleïs,
Recorded in the book of conscience
And behind the gilded crest stamped on the boards
They barely dare to scratch or burp.
3
Tear tears along, chasing tear, and kicks it
When it’s down: Turn the other cheek, tear!
I’m trailing you, I’m on your track,
Blinking at you like a lighted spill
Making the walls reel, like a lighted match.
Tease me, tear, you madcap
Be my healer:
You, my little book, me your reader.
Tear answers tear:
Nivermore, tear, rest you nighwhere
Beyond the hermit’s lonely rock-fault
I will return to you as rocksalt.
4
My lady neighbour drives out on black sables
Riding hood laughing, her mittens speak in riddles
Three fields she passed, and the fourth a rise,
Into the yard like thunder she rides.
Her neighbour sits stunned –
Offer her honey in the bowl of your paw
Put her to bed on the bench in the warmth.
She will then set up such a howling:
The master’s right burns bright as a barn
A mother’s caress is still as a millpond
And if you thirst and drop your snout down in
A pail, there’s not enough water to drink or to drown in
5
Where the dance was shaped in flame:
Stand away – you’ll see it’s still burning now
Flames without heat, fire without sense, inextinguishable