75 лучших рассказов / 75 Best Short Stories

When the gentleman replaced the paper on his companion’s lap, his face was almost as pale as hers. For a moment he gazed fixedly and vacantly before him, and a half-suppressed curse escaped his lips. Then his eyes reverted to his neighbor. After some hesitation, during which he allowed the reins to hang so loose that the horse lapsed into a walk, he touched her gently on the shoulder.

‘Well, Hortense,’ said he, in a very pleasant tone, ‘what’s the matter; have you fallen asleep?’

Hortense slowly opened her eyes, and, seeing that they had left the town behind them, raised her veil. Her features were stiffened with horror.

‘Read that,’ said she, holding out the open letter.

The gentleman took it, and pretended to read it again.

‘Ah! M. Bernier returns. Delightful!’ he exclaimed.

‘How, delightful?’ asked Hortense; ‘we mustn’t jest at so serious a crisis, my friend.’

‘True,’ said the other, ‘it will be a solemn meeting. Two years of absence is a great deal.’

‘O Heaven! I shall never dare to face him,’ cried Hortense, bursting into tears.

Covering her face with one hand, she put out the other toward that of her friend. But he was plunged in so deep a reverie, that he did not perceive the movement. Suddenly he came to, aroused by her sobs.

‘Come, come,’ said he, in the tone of one who wishes to coax another into mistrust of a danger before which he does not himself feel so secure but that the sight of a companion’s indifference will give him relief. ‘What if he does come? He need learn nothing. He will stay but a short time, and sail away again as unsuspecting as he came.’

‘Learn nothing! You surprise me. Every tongue that greets him, if only to say bon jour , will wag to the tune of a certain person’s misconduct.’

‘Bah! People don’t think about us quite as much as you fancy. You and I, n’est-ce pas? [298] we have little time to concern ourselves about our neighbors’ failings. Very well, other people are in the same box, better or worse. When a ship goes to pieces on those rocks out at sea, the poor devils who are pushing their way to land on a floating spar, don’t bestow many glances on those who are battling with the waves beside them. Their eyes are fastened to the shore, and all their care is for their own safety. In life we are all afloat on a tumultuous sea; we are all struggling toward some terra firma [299] of wealth or love or leisure. The roaring of the waves we kick up about us and the spray we dash into our eyes deafen and blind us to the sayings and doing of our fellows. Provided we climb high and dry, what do we care for them?’

‘Ay, but if we don’t? When we’ve lost hope ourselves, we want to make others sink. We hang weights about their necks, and dive down into the dirtiest pools for stones to cast at them. My friend, you don’t feel the shots which are not aimed at you. It isn’t of you the town talks, but of me: a poor woman throws herself off the pier yonder, and drowns before a kind hand has time to restrain her, and her corpse floats over the water for all the world to look at. When her husband comes up to see what the crowd means, is there any lack of kind friends to give him the good news of his wife’s death?’

‘As long as a woman is light enough to float, Hortense, she is not counted drowned. It’s only when she sinks out of sight that they give her up.’

Hortense was silent a moment, looking at the sea with swollen eyes.

‘Louis,’ she said at last, ‘we were speaking metaphorically: I have half a mind to drown myself literally.’

‘Nonsense!’ replied Louis, ‘an accused pleads not guilty , and hangs himself in prison. What do the papers say? People talk, do they? Can’t you talk as well as they? A woman is in the wrong from the moment she holds her tongue and refuses battle. And that you do too often. That pocket handkerchief is always more or less of a flag of truce.’

‘I’m sure I don’t know,’ said Hortense indifferently; ‘perhaps it is.’

There are moments of grief in which certain aspects of the subject of our distress seem as irrelevant as matters entirely foreign to it. Her eyes were still fastened on the sea. There was another silence. ‘O my poor Charles!’ she murmured, at length, ‘to what a hearth do you return!’

‘Hortense,’ said the gentleman, as if he had not heard her, although, to a third person, it would have appeared that it was because he had done so that he spoke: ‘I do not need to tell you that it will never happen to me to betray our secret. But I will answer for it that so long as M. Bernier is at home no mortal shall breathe a syllable of it.’

‘What of that?’ sighed Hortense. ‘He will not be with me ten minutes without guessing it.’

‘Oh, as for that,’ said her companion, dryly, ‘that’s your own affair.’

‘Monsieur de Meyrau!’ cried the lady.

‘It seems to me,’ continued the other, ‘that in making such a guarantee, I have done my part of the business.’

‘Your part of the business!’ sobbed Hortense.

M. de Meyrau made no reply, but with a great cut of the whip sent the horse bounding along the road. Nothing more was said. Hortense lay back in the carriage with her face buried in her handkerchief, moaning. Her companion sat upright, with contracted brows and firmly set teeth, looking straight before him, and by an occasional heavy lash keeping the horse at a furious pace. A wayfarer might have taken him for a ravisher escaping with a victim worn out with resistance. Travellers to whom they were known would perhaps have seen a deep meaning in this accidental analogy. So, by a detour [300] , they returned to the town.

When Hortense reached home, she went straight up to a little boudoir on the second floor, and shut herself in. This room was at the back of the house, and her maid, who was at that moment walking in the long garden which stretched down to the water, where there was a landing place for small boats, saw her draw in the window blind and darken the room, still in her bonnet and cloak. She remained alone for a couple of hours. At five o’clock, some time after the hour at which she was usually summoned to dress her mistress for the evening, the maid knocked at Hortense’s door, and offered her services. Madame called out, from within, that she had a migraine , and would not be dressed.

‘Can I get anything for madame?’ asked Josephine; ‘a tisane , a warm drink, something?’

‘Nothing, nothing.’

‘Will madame dine?’

‘No.’

‘Madame had better not go wholly without eating.’

‘Bring me a bottle of wine – of brandy.’

Josephine obeyed. When she returned, Hortense was standing in the doorway, and as one of the shutters had meanwhile been thrown open, the woman could see that, although her mistress’s hat had been tossed upon the sofa, her cloak had not been removed, and that her face was very pale. Josephine felt that she might not offer sympathy nor ask questions.

‘Will madame have nothing more?’ she ventured to say, as she handed her the tray.

Madame shook her head, and closed and locked the door.

Josephine stood a moment vexed, irresolute, listening. She heard no sound. At last she deliberately stooped down and applied her eye to the keyhole.

This is what she saw:

Her mistress had gone to the open window, and stood with her back to the door, looking out at the sea. She held the bottle by the neck in one hand, which hung listlessly by her side; the other was resting on a glass half filled with water, standing, together with an open letter, on a table beside her. She kept this position until Josephine began to grow tired of waiting. But just as she was about to arise in despair of gratifying her curiosity, madame raised the bottle and glass, and filled the latter full. Josephine looked more eagerly. Hortense held it a moment against the light, and then drained it down.

Josephine could not restrain an involuntary whistle. But her surprise became amazement when she saw her mistress prepare to take a second glass. Hortense put it down, however, before its contents were half gone, as if struck by a sudden thought, and hurried across the room. She stooped down before a cabinet, and took out a small opera glass. With this she returned to the window, put it to her eyes, and again spent some moments in looking seaward. The purpose of this proceeding Josephine could not make out. The only result visible to her was that her mistress suddenly dropped the lorgnette on the table, and sank down on an armchair, covering her face with her hands.

Josephine could contain her wonderment no longer. She hurried down to the kitchen.

‘Valentine,’ said she to the cook, ‘what on earth can be the matter with Madame? She will have no dinner, she is drinking brandy by the glassful, a moment ago she was looking out to sea with a lorgnette, and now she is crying dreadfully with an open letter in her lap.’

The cook looked up from her potato-peeling with a significant wink.

‘What can it be,’ said she, ‘but that monsieur returns?’